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im just putting this out for stories, questions and answers.

Now its been some time since i started becoming a SW fan boy that needs everything SW. but until very recently i havent been able to make connections of myself to SW.

1. When i finished the NJO i have every novel but none of the E-book ones. but i tend to believe i kinda grew up with Jacen Solo during the 4 year run of the NJO, I was 13 when it started and 17 when it ended.

2. My last name is a French word that means to elongate or make longer and has an english equivilent that extends leagal terms and it apperad with an extra "L" in the newest Tales.

3. Reading my new SWI, the new format is horrible! but in the comics sections it reads that Clone Trooper: CT-96 is going to star in it. Now, I became a huge fan of Star Wars in 1996 and I only knew of the classic trilogy when i was 10ish and i didnt know of the EU. Therefore i was a fan of the Classic Trilogy in 1996; CT-96

Kinda sounds egocentric but i was wondering if any of you out there have any SW connections.

Yeah. I share Luke's helplessness and fury at seeing my father lying dead (killed by people who had since departed).

Like him, I share a desire to do good. I've wanted to join my nation's military to 'fight the good fight' as it were, although I never wanted to be a pilot (I've always wanted to join the Navy thanks to ST). I've also studied ninjutsu, which I think fits Jedi ideology and doctrine closer than all the samurai fanwhores would like to think (but only if you count the OT and TPM, where the Jedi act like spies, infiltrators, advisors, commandos, security personnel - AOTC fits the same point up until that stupid Mace Windu had to cock things up with his idiotic "Last Stand of the Samurai" macho bullshit). In other words I want to be a 'Jedi'.

In relevance to the ninjutsu training, I've also had a 'Yoda' moment. I joined thinking "Hey, I'm gonna master this in x years" in a similar way Luke thought "Hey, I can be a Jedi! I'm not afraid!" The moment I'm referring to was the line "Oh, you will be. You will be." And yes - learning about how fragile the human body is and how easily you can seriously injure or even kill someone is VERY frightening (and also coming to terms with the dark side in you).

I've had dreams which bare a frightening relevance to Luke's cave scene in ESB. I was chased by a monster which looked unhuman and killed me; the second dream, which occured after my father's murder, I was chased by a monster that looked more... 'human'. And I killed it; it fell into an abyss - mirroring and reversing the outcome of my previous dream, where I fell into the abyss. Sounds weird, but the closest symbolism I can make of it is the cave scene in ESB.

On a light-hearted front, I've also had dreams where Han Solo and I blew up Death Stars and command bunkers.

Like Luke I feel like a loner (I loved a girl but she chose someone else over me, and now I feel she's more like a 'sister' to me than anything else).

And that's all the SW connections I can think of. They're all true, by the way. And they're all a testamount to SW's pervasive nature.

Well, the TPM novelisation, as well as AOTC suggests that Anakin can predict the future or what is going on elsewhere, in his dreams.

Well, I have that "ability", or deja vu way too often. It started way way back when I was around 10-11.

What happened was, I had this extremely strange dream, where I was in this white hall, and there were all these tables all around me. Initially, I was not alone, but as I gazed around, they all sorta disappeared. And I was left standing right there, looking around, and I saw this "verse" on the wall, along with a cross beside it.

A year later, I was enrolled in my new secondary school, waiting in the school auditorium, in that exact same hall, with a biblical verse on the wall, beside a blue coloured cross.

This was the first time I can recall having such a dream, that correlates so exactly to what will happen in the future, without any possible "containmination" or retro-active guessing. It will repeat itself for the next few years, the dreams will approximately take place a year before the event itself, although in the time up to my enlistment in the army, the time period between dream and event shrank to months.

Other incidents range from me marching around a basketball court(a dream sequence I actually had when I started to dooze off in a bus), a conversation about Britney Spears and Christina aguilera, one of my section mates being punished for making a wise crack and so on and forth. These above events are ones which cannot possibly have been guessed at, or contaniminated, or "changed" to fit with what happened in real life or deja vu, which I get lots of time. Like for example, in my current job as a sales assistant.

I wouldn't be so disturbed by these dreams, if it wasn't for the fact that I'm starting to mix up reality with fiction, and its getting more and more diffcult over the years to seperate between the two. What happens is I never know which of my dreams are prophecies, which are dreams, and which are just things that I think are real, but are not. There have been more than one incident in my life, where I wake up, thinking, hmmm, that dream was a dream, but it was about a real place here in Singapore, I should go there, and when I actually try to go there, I realise that the place possibly can't exist. Or that the dream was about something real that happened, as in I wake up thinking I did this and this yesterday, then I realise, it was just a dream, and not my mind going over what happened yesterday in my dreams.

Its gets extremely scarey at times, because I'm no longer truly aware which of my memories are really memories, and not false illusions anymore. For example, during the movie Forest Gump, I commented to my brother, "Hey, isn't this the same movie we watched on TV 2 years back?" He said no, and it couldn't have been. Yet, the exact same scenes, from "life is a box of chocolates", he mooning the President, being hugged by that girl, the girl dying of cancer, I vividly recall a similar movie being played on a sunday afternoon, and I was too bored, choosing to read in my bed. Yet, in my forays out to the kitchen, I would see the above said scenes, hear choice words from the movie, and my brother was watching it, AND THIS CAN"T POSSIBLY BE TRUE!

To that extent, whenever I get a "prophecy" dream , I has taken the habit of noting down the date and what are the images and scenes that I can remember. It doesn't work that well due to the vagaries of the human mind, meaning that when certain incidents arose, I cannot be sure whether I'm twisting what happened in life to fit my dreams or otherwise, yet, save for two of the most miserable years of my life, I have had a dream correspond to an incident since I was 12.

And I also started to notice the trend, that these dreams tend to foretell periods of my life, where I'm moving into a new phase of life, and trying to be happy. Perhaps, that's why so many of these dreams, foretold incidents that happened to me in my army life, even to the dreams being the most accurate and detailed ones I have ever had in my life, with words repeated exactly, with the same situation happening exactly(the sun was shining into the room, and into my corner when my army mates and I had finished cleaning our bunk and rifles and were talking cock, when the topic shifted to Britney vs Christina)

Stofsk wrote:
Like Luke I feel like a loner (I loved a girl but she chose someone else over me, and now I feel she's more like a 'sister' to me than anything else).

Are you a guy, or a girl?

Stofsk's a guy, I believe.

PainRack wrote:

Stofsk wrote:Like Luke I feel like a loner (I loved a girl but she chose someone else over me, and now I feel she's more like a 'sister' to me than anything else).

Are you a guy, or a girl?

I'm a guy. Why do you ask?

Well, I'm a wookiee who owes a life-debt to a wise-ass pilot. God, I wish I could tear his arms off.

Stofsk has to be a guy. Would a girl use that Qui-Gon bin Laden avatar of his?

I'm like Stofsk here, I've always wanted to do good like a Jedi. I've considered getting into law enforcement someday - maybe the FBI, if they're still interested in accounting geeks in 3-5 years, and like being a Jedi that would require an enormous sacrifice on my part (probably wouldn't be able to have a family, would have very little free time). It's extremely geeky and probably a silly fantasy, but the connection is there.

I can't say I feel in any way connected to Star Wars outside of the movies and this board.

Ditto for me- I read the Zahn trilogy (and now possess the comic versions on my PC) then read "Jedi Academy" and a few other pieces of shit (Courtship of Princess Leia, Crystal Star)- then stopped.

All I care about is the films, the books that deal with the subject matter of the films, and the vs debate. In that order.

Oh, but I fucking love SW games. Don't know where to put them.

I feel no real conections to anything in the SW-verse.

The closest thing I can think of is that some people I know see me as an Obi-Wan type figure. That's basically it.

Other than the fact that I've spent a good portion of my life feeling the same way as Luke did at the beginning of ANH (being stuck at the ass-end of the Universe and wanting to get out) I don't really have anything in my life that mirrors anything that happened in Star Wars.

Star Wars was one of the early movies I've watched over and over again since I was little. Plus, I've always wanted Jedi powers (mind trick people who are nasty to me to walk into walls, punch themselves, etc)

Joe wrote:I'm like Stofsk here, I've always wanted to do good like a Jedi. I've considered getting into law enforcement someday - maybe the FBI, if they're still interested in accounting geeks in 3-5 years, and like being a Jedi that would require an enormous sacrifice on my part (probably wouldn't be able to have a family, would have very little free time). It's extremely geeky and probably a silly fantasy, but the connection is there.

My father was a DEA officer, head of DEA in two cities...
He obviously had a family Wouldn't be too worried about that.

Stofsk wrote: I'm a guy. Why do you ask?

Because,errr, in a previous thread off topic, I seemed to recall that you posted something that signalled you were a girl. It stuck in my head, because I was wondering, what girl will use that avatar?

SW Connection? Nope, nothing, nada 'cept a lot of books in storage in the garage.

PainRack wrote:

Stofsk wrote:I'm a guy. Why do you ask?

Because,errr, in a previous thread off topic, I seemed to recall that you posted something that signalled you were a girl. It stuck in my head, because I was wondering, what girl will use that avatar?

You're probably remembering something I said in ARSE. In any case, I am a member of GALE (*points to sig*) which should have tipped you off.

Tychu wrote:Kinda sounds egocentric but i was wondering if any of you out there have any SW connections.

I've talked to Saxton(we're like bestest buds!) and Aaron Allston(a few times), I know people, I've got connections, I can make you dissapear.
Thats my definition of a connection anyway and thats what I thought you meant.