Weather Reports & Destiny
Posted: 2003-02-26 06:33pm
So, I'm not by nature a superstitious person. Logic and reason, hurrah! However, when it comes to love and trying to figure guys out, I tend to totally abandon reason and my brain stretches to come up with some bizarre rationale to try to twist things to be either very much in my favour or very much not. Although I realize I'm doing it, I still can't see clearly and it ends up skewing my perception of things and then I just end up feeling like a psycho.
For instance, 1 1/2 weeks ago, 28" of snow fell, and basically my entire region of Maryland shut down for a week. This meant that I missed out on seeing this guy in question; we are performing in the same music ensembles, and they were cancelled so I didn't see him. Now, today there was more snow, and there's going to be an additional 5-10" overnight, so I'm almost definitely not going to see him tomorrow. Sounds pretty straightforward, yah?
My issue is--why does my logical brain then say to myself, "Hmmm, more snow? Guess this just isn't meant to be. Give up on him and look somewhere else, Self," and then I get all mopey, but I can't place a finger on why because he didn't do anything. IT'S THE GODDAMN WEATHER!! Obviously the guy didn't brew up a storm or two so that he would have to avoid me, so why do I persist in thinking this?! Why why why?
Any help would be greatly appreciated.
And anyone who says that it's simply because I'm a woman is going to get a beating. Not the fun kind, either.
For instance, 1 1/2 weeks ago, 28" of snow fell, and basically my entire region of Maryland shut down for a week. This meant that I missed out on seeing this guy in question; we are performing in the same music ensembles, and they were cancelled so I didn't see him. Now, today there was more snow, and there's going to be an additional 5-10" overnight, so I'm almost definitely not going to see him tomorrow. Sounds pretty straightforward, yah?
My issue is--why does my logical brain then say to myself, "Hmmm, more snow? Guess this just isn't meant to be. Give up on him and look somewhere else, Self," and then I get all mopey, but I can't place a finger on why because he didn't do anything. IT'S THE GODDAMN WEATHER!! Obviously the guy didn't brew up a storm or two so that he would have to avoid me, so why do I persist in thinking this?! Why why why?
Any help would be greatly appreciated.
And anyone who says that it's simply because I'm a woman is going to get a beating. Not the fun kind, either.