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This is my from a coupple of years back

On a Saturday after a failed date. I decided to get to get drunk.

That I did.

Now there is a law that cars must stop for pedestrians at the marked crossings.

One bastard didn’t in fact he did run a red light. So I kicked the car and hit the rear view mirror and it went flying.

Naturally the bloke stopped and started to exite the car. But he was stupid he yelled “What the hell did you do” and “I am gona kill you” to me.

That scared me a bit so I kicked his car door closed while he was halfway out.

He went down hard. And then I gave him a kick over the face and I went running like hell.

Now I am still having a guilty feeling about thath whole mess, and it's going to haunt me for a while yet I think.

So what's your regrets?

Well, he did make a death threat towards you.

Mine is short and sweet. I regret marrying at 19. Well, maybe not regret marrying at 19, but regret marrying the woman DID at 19. I'm such an idiot

I have two. One is extremely private and I won't dilvulge it here except to say I've been allowed to atone for my error.

So, on to the regret I will share:
I was rejected for military service way back in the early 90's. Its a bit of a long story, but like most young people I had no idea what to do with my life or what I wanted nor did I have any money. I looked into joining the Marines and while I was at MEPS I was asked about my bouts of Bronchitis as a child. They asked if I had been given a shot or pills. I said shot, because it only happened once so I figured that was the lesser of the two. Turns out a shot for Bronchitis is an automatic DQ.

However, they were willing to let me take a more comprehensive physical to get an exemption. I chickened out for various reasons, one of them being to finish two years of community college. There was more, I was scared, not confident, etc. So about a year later I ran into a recruiter at school he asked what I was up to and had I thought about the Marines.
I told him I had and they I wanted to wait till I was done with a 2nd year of school. I did not mention the medical hold. So this time I went back to the process with all intent of joining, maybe for active duty instead of reserves. I was hoping they would not have my previous records and I could get in.

Well, turns out they keep the records for 5 years and by this time (1991) the economy was turning south, the miltiary was shrinking (even though this was in the middle of Desert Shield) , and they simply said no.

Its half my fault for not listening to my original recruiter and not listing every little health problem. Its my fault for not having courage to step outside a comfortable place and take a risk. Its not my fault for having been a really sick kid, but still Ive never really come to terms with what I consider a failure of my own character. Now that Im 32, I dont beat myself up as much as I did in my 20's. I've got too much to worry about now but usually a few times a week I do wonder what would have been.

My only main regret is allowing myself to fall in love more than once.

THe only one i can talk about beyond crippling self-loathing would be fucking up my A-Levels because i was depressed. Oh and crashing my car.

My biggest regret would be skipping nearly one and a half of years school. Because of that, I got kicked out of the best high school in Winnipeg, and had to go to the worst one.

I'll probably be regreting that one for a long time.

On the flip side, my best friend, who skipped more than I did, still goes there because he is on the football team.

So hard to tell. My biggest regret I won't share here, too personal. My other regret, that's nearly as big:

Not asking a girl I fell in love with out when I first met her. I wish I had, it was damn near love at first sight and had I had the guts to ask, who knows. Now she's married and has a son with some one else and is moving out of state in a few days.

I regret not exchanging names and phone numbers with a gorgeous girl that flirted with me on the train. I really wish I had; it's not every day someone like that comes along and looks so obviously interested in you.

But, I take comfort from a line in Seven Samurai: "The fish that got away always looks the biggest." I still fell like a jackass, though.

I'd say I regret being too shy one year, too open the next, hanging around with a bunch of backstabbers, making an ass of myself, and bypassing oppurtunities to make friends the entire time. Of course, now that I moved, it doesn't really matter.

Every stupid mistake I have ever made in my relationship with the girl I'm in love with and will never actually have.

I lost a few female friends because I was attracted to them and then acted stupidly/inapporpriately/whatever. Good friggin friends, and I pissed them away.

I think that's my biggest regret. Either that or being too shy from about 10 years old till a year or two ago.

Howedar wrote:I think that's my biggest regret. Either that or being too shy from about 10 years old till a year or two ago.

How do you stop being shy? I have that problem as well.

Stofsk wrote:

Howedar wrote:I think that's my biggest regret. Either that or being too shy from about 10 years old till a year or two ago.

How do you stop being shy? I have that problem as well.

Just go and do it. That's the only way that really works.

Yeah, pretty much. Going away to college was a real easy time to change though, with nobody expecting anything specific from you.

There was this one girl in High School. I knew that she liked me, and I liked her, but i never asked her out. This pretty much sent the tone for my entire love-life, or I should say lack of a love-life. Im 25 and never been on a date.

My second biggest regret was when I told a female friend that I was attracted to her, and she rejected me. It basically ended the friendship. She wouldnt speak to me afterwards.

Oh... so goddamned many....

One big one my friend Ray and I try never to speak of came in '92, when T2 was about to be released. A special convention was held before the movie's release, with a costume contest that would be judged by Arnold himself. We planned a makeup for over 2 weeks to win that contest, and it was similar to this one, but even more involved.

Anyway, we couldn't get the "jaw piston" to work properly (it kept pushing away from Ray's face, and we were such sticklers for detail that we didn't want to do a shit makeup and be embarassed on stage in front of Arnie. So even after working on it in the parking lot at the last minute, we said "fuck it" and didn't do it.

Anyway, the jerkoff that won had mousse in his hair to make it stick up and an army jacket on. That's IT. He took pictures with Arnold, was featured in a Rolling Stone article, etc.

You can't imagine how fucking pissed we were, driving home. We've vowed not to talk about it, because that was one of our worst fuck ups, in a string of fuckups.

BTW, Arnold's best line onstage was, "I wanted to name it 'The Sperminator'- I come Again!"

I regret never asking out this one girl in my freshman Rhetoric class. She was quite intellegent and pretty cute, and we got along pretty well: occasionally we'd continue conversations while walking to her next class.

Unfortunately, I tend not to interact very much with people outside of class, and she didn't attend very much after a while (she eventually dropped the class), so I rarely saw her afterwards. I never asked her out, asked if she was seeing anyone, or even if she ever just wanted to hang out sometime. And that I regret...

Let's just say I can COMPLETELY sympathize with TrailerParkJawa.

My botched abortion of a military career is by far my biggest regret. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about how much of a failure I am. While it was due to circumstances largely beyond my control it still makes me feel like garbage. I don't know what I could have done better, so I really just regret trying in the first place.

Well, I guess this is a "me too" post, but like Lazy Raptor, and TrailerParkJawa, I was also rejected from military service. The marine corp specifically. I had gone through the DEP, and was sent to the facility in LA, before I would ship off to mcrd. But during DEP, i got a tattoo on my chest following my grandmother's death. My recruiter said it was ok, but it turns out, it wasn't since it was partically visible if i didn't have an undershirt on.

While I am happy in my life now, I still can't but feel that sense of failure whenever I see a Marine in unifrom.

The last three years of my life.........its too long and convoluted, but lets just say Sokars plans are all royally fucked and I'm back to square one........but I still breathe so not all is lost.

Hey Faram, don't stress that one too much. A couple of years ago, I was roided up and punched a big dent in a woman's car door who had cut me off. I wish I hadn't of done that...

My biggest regret is not visiting with my grandma more often during the last couple of years of her life. My eyes are watering up even as I type this. There was really no reason for me not to have seen her more... That's my biggest regret.

I regret ever regretting something instead of just stopping making the same mistakes.

The source of my regret is discussed here. My regret is not seeing it sooner. Looking at the logs, there were clear signs that she was, perhaps, in need of professional help.

Oh well, you know what they say about hindsight.

Not asking out not ONE, but THREE girls I knew like me out.