Drakafic: Dastam râ begir.
Posted: 2004-09-07 01:00pm
(For those interested purely in military action, you will probably not like this story. I am writing it out of personal interest to satisfy some sociological questions that the Domination of Draka has proposed to me, so to speak, and also to deal with some unfinished mysteries of Arabia under the Draka and the Great War period. That said, I do not intend for anyone to get bored reading it, so if you wish to see to where the story goes, please do read on. My earlier Drakafic, Araby, should be read as an introduction/prequel before reading this story.)
Part One: Where love yet prevails
Sleeping during the night was odd. It was something nobody did. Or, at least, nobody in the desert. The night was when you moved, when the air was cool and the stars overhead allowed you to navigate. The bed was uncomfortable. It was to soft; the body got used to sleeping with only a blanket between yourself and the sand, perhaps a grand rug at the best. Indeed, there was no sand. It was stuffy; the desert was brutally hot, but it was open. Here there was only the slow stirring of the air from a punkah, the bands that controlled it pushed back and forth endlessly by a slave.
Elizabeth, her floppy mess of hair unkempt in sullen contrast to Drakian style, rose as the afternoon began to cool, slowly in that murky air. There would be a long list of things to do, that had accumulated during the day when everybody else worked. Things for her to do, and things for Puran to do. "Bidâr," awake, she said softly into the other woman's ear. And again. "Bidâr." Puran did not easily awake; no doubt her dreams were better than her reality. But the familiar word in Farsi was enough to stir her, and groaning softly, she rolled over onto her side, away from Elizabeth, speaking not, though Beth knew that her eyes were open.
It was a thing that pained her heart. She rolled on her side as well, if for no other reason than the deny the temptation of rest the silken sheets induced. Beth in truth hated them, but Puran insured that the best was provided for her mistress, and since she was usually not even in the manor, she never had bothered to tell her Majorodomo to stop buying them--what would be the point? All the wealth in the world was no comfort to the soul, nor would it ever be. The gaudy ostentation of her society hide its inherent hollowness.
"Ché khabar ast ?" Beth ignored the prohibitions regarding the native language of serfs as much as she had over time become willing to break most of the other prohibitions of her society; she was at any rate in the Security Directorate herself and they needed her. Nobody cared about one eccentric who had at most fifty serfs and stayed in the deep desert most of the year.
"Qalb-e-man zarar rasândan," Puran replied after a long silence in which she'd weighed the response with the heavy heart of a serf to the dangers of the language and of the question. It was a confession that some others would not have stood.
"I do not like causing you pain," Beth answered with a dreadful, towering feeling in the heart. She was tired, a sort of tiredness that a long sleep could not divest her of. Classic Farsi, spoken between them, sounded cleaner and lighter off the tongue than the Drakian dialect of English that she had grown up speaking. It was a language of poets and philosophers, of things unsuited for composition in the harsh, chopped English of her nation with its awkward loan words.
"I believe you, sometimes," Puran answered after another long silence. "And.." Her voice faded to a whisper. "I have even learned to like our nights together. But..."
"I know it brings you guilt," Beth sighed and rolled over, her body pressing up to her slave's, breasts touching lightly to her back, a hand lightly wrapping around her. Puran moved not in response, but rather breathed in slowly the muggy salt-borne air of the levantine coast as it was lightly stirred by the constantly moving punkah.
"I am your faithful slave," Puran debased herself, the words fluttering out with the eloquence of a most humble form, in a language trained around such distinctions, a language that could express a hundred forms of submission to Man and three hundred to God.
The nuance of the sentence did not recover Elizabeth's heart. She rested in silence against her slave, her mind musing over the response, over trivial things in it to avoid the deeper sentiment: Perhaps part of the reason the Dominate was so violent in its control, was that its awkward language, built up with the vocabulary of equality, could not properly express what must be said in a society built around submission.
None of that particularly mattered at the moment, however. "You know I have stopped sleeping with any others, a long time ago," murmured Elizabeth. "Do not fault me for how I was raised, as I do not fault you for the prejudices of your race."
Long years of power and responsibility, by the standards of a serf, and Elizabeth's casual assent to Puran's independence, brought the outburst that came suddenly, the young woman turning towards her mistress with such abruptness as that Elizabeth found herself looking up at the flashing intensity of Puran's exquisite eyes of gray and green, dark hair silouetting the light dusk skin of that nobly-set face and voluptuous frame that had been given every attention deserved of a prized serf. "No one is fated to conquer. Perhaps our race was inflicted with you for our sins by Allah, but that you were the hand of his wrath was your own choice. Allah does not compel anyone to evil without their own desire to commit it."
A reactive instinct of rage at Puran began to grow, but then faded. She could not find it in her heart even to rebuke the girl, not anymore, for an act of impudence that deserved at least a hundred lashes, or worse. That would just restore the lust and the envy and hollow out the heart once more. Elizabeth felt the deadening futility of it all and smiled up, gently. The sudden anger that seized Puran faded as she looked down at that mellow smile and realized how close she had come.
Slowly Puran's body folded in against Elizabeth's, limp, almost exhausted physically as well as emotionally by the act of free will, contrary to the nature ingrained in her for at least half of her life and the formative years at that. She slumped against Elizabeth, sobbing softly against her with the heavy weight of fears and shame, at once at herself and what had been done to her.
Elizabeth wrapped her arms lightly around the girl, the sheet churned around by their movements and now tossed aside. "I love you, Puran, and lust borne of youth and avarice has been swept out of my heart by time in the sands. What is empty is full and what is full is empty--my people are great in their physical strength, but our race is built on the rejection of all inner power. Believe me when I say I have learned this and reject it; I cannot give you my freedom but I can give you my heart."
Puran rolled off of Elizabeth with a heavy sigh upon her lips. "The heart cannot be stirred to passion without freedom. Mistress, I know my duty to you and will never abandon it... But that is all I feel within my heart for you. It is a strong bond, but not what you seek."
Elizabeth laughed, and it was a bitter thing. "I am punished for my obsessions. All the power in the world does not grant you command of another's heart, as your co-religionists so gladly demonstrate in ever-growing numbers."
The truth did not confirmation from silent Puran, who again averted herself from her mistress and in so doing spoke in a language deeper than even the rich words of her native tongue. Elizabeth watched it, and made to rise, unable to bear Puran's presence so close as to be felt through the air, the need to escape the remind of that faint tingle upon the senses.
Elizabeth walked towards the balcony off the bedroom, grasping for a robe and draping it over her form as she opened up the light french doors and stepped out, looking over the gardens she had created in the classic Islamic style, full of fountains and geometric patterns and vegetation pleasing to the eye. Birds dwelled there, and blue-tiled walkways reminiscent of the mostly destroyed Islamic architecture of the world. Some of it remained, in Europe, in Xinjiang, and of course it flourished in India, where the Caliph led Friday prayers in the Badshahi Mosque with its capacity of fifty thousand worshippers.
Her people were very good at destroying beauty. The sight, today, did not calm her but rather just aroused her anger. The price of their unbroken string of conquests was impossibly great, but what had given them the power of conquest also denied them the ability to realize their crimes. Denied them the ability to feel. The outward gaudiness of her race was a masque to cover what was hollow, nothing more, and she could not even bear the thought of it without contempt any longer.
There was nothing here for her. These people were not her comrades, even though she fought and had risked her life for them for nearly twenty years. Her life had been lived in the service of the State, and in the end that service had destroyed her relationship to the State. Once, her lust for conquest and atrocity had led her, when peace finally reinged, to the desert, to continue the fight. But the desert had swallowed up all the futility of those efforts, swallowed up herself, ultimately, so that she was no longer the same.
A Drakian soul was eternally thirsty, but where there was not water, sand might suffice. The cost was incredibly heavy, though, and it still weighed on the heart. "The purest form of love is unrequited love," she murmured, this in Arabic, as was only suitable. Looking back to Puran she saw her obediently remaining on the bed and smiled softly, and then turned to walk back in. "I am going to bathe, Puran, and clear my mind in the steam. I will send for you soon."
"As you command, Mistress."
The words simply drove home the decision made in the fullness of that hot levantine air, that she had but to reconcile herself to.
Puran made her way through the languid heat of the hammân, relaxed by the steam of it, to at last come to the reclining room where her mistress waited. Her heart was heavy, and she still feared the reaction that might come of her rejection. But Puran could not have lied; she sensed the truth in the words that had been uttered to her and she could not make herself answer prettily and falsely to them, to masque her heart simply to win the favour of her mistress. She was beyond it, herself, and that prideful example from a slave had done more to corrupt the one who owned then she could realize.
"Châi?" Elizabeth asked as she entered, gesturing to the tea with a casual sort of friendliness that seemed beyond even the relaxed nature of their relationship by most standards between the master and serf.
"Moteshakker hastam," Puran replied uncertainly as she moved to sit. Shame might linger in her heart but it was long stripped from her body; and in the bath, at least, nudity at least seemed halfway normal, despite all the memories that might remain. She took up the tea and in doing so saw approval in Elizabeth's eyes, and for a few minutes they sipped their tea in what seemed frightfully like a companionable silence.
It was Elizabeth who spoke, again, and this time in Arabic: "I will not utter a word to you in English again, I swear it upon the salt of my body. Puran, you may not love me, but it does not bend my own heart."
Puran felt a tightening in her chest, of fear and curious anticipation, as she looked with widened eyes to Elizabeth. "Why do you say such a thing, mistress, when you consider my duties? What do you mean that your heart is not bent?" The last question posed in rising nervousness that soon became apparent to the woman across from her.
"Worry not, Puran." A serene expression, that of someone who had made up their mind. A decade in the desert and two of war had been sufficient, and love had provided the crucible. "I am headed into the deep desert."
Shock, at first: "So soon!? Mistress... There is so much that they wish you to do here." But the words covered up the deeper meaning of what had been said and Puran knew it. Realized dawned but slowly; yet the sense of a finality came over the room.
"I have already ordered the Druze to prepare for a sortie. They do not know where yet, but they do not need to. We are going south, through the Negev, and then across to the Nejd. From there we will cut south, over the Riyadh railroad, into the Rub' al-Khali. We are going to Muscat, Puran, where they will not expect us to go, because everyone knows it is impossible to cross the Rub' al-Khali. We are going to Muscat, Puran, and there are two sets of riding clothes waiting for us when we leave the hammân."
Puran could not find words, no matter the tongue, as she stared back at Elizabeth, in utter shock. But she did not need them; there was no question of not going with her mistress. This was to be the last command, and it would be obeyed.
They rode mares through the night, fine Arabians bred for these conditions, bred by nomads for their needs under the desert. Puran still wondered sometimes if she were dreaming. They rode under the stars, there was not a cloud, no haze, nothing, just the endless canopy of the stars that guided them onward. It was a strange feeling; for seventeen years, since she was seven, her life had been, no pun intended, dominated by the Domination. Now there was a feeling of emptiness and terrible fright, but it mingled with other things.
It was more impossible for her to believe that Elizabeth had done what she had, than to think that for all intents and purposes she was free. They all risked death--her's and that of the Druze more hideous than Beth's for 'abberant' behaviour--and it had made them light-hearted, the natural instinct of humans to ease the tension of close danger. The ride through the Negev had been eerily empty, nobody in sight, nobody alive. A few empty roads were crossed and nothing was seen: The Bedouin had either died, or fled east, into the security of the deep desert.
Puran had been amazed how during the day a group of seventy-two travellers with five hundred and seventy-six animals had simply been able to vanish. Dyed tarpulins and skillful concealment that was, as Elizabeth had told her, based on how the bedouin now hid in the deep desert--from aeroplanes. It was obvious from the ground that people were there, but even from an altitude of a few dozen feet the whole camp blended in to the desert without the slightest bit of evidence that it existed, or so she had been assured. As for the ground, well, every single one of them--except for Puran herself--had a good old Turkish Mauser, the preferred gun of Security Directorate operators on the Arabian frontier, because it allowed them to use ammunition taken off the bodies of their enemies and was very reliable in the sand.
It still felt very odd. Fifteen years of life receded before her. She had just begun to write in the Farsi script when the Domination came and were it not for Elizabeth those ties would perhaps have already long since been sundered. Her childhood, poor in comparison with her life with Beth, still seemed as paradise. A paradise that had come to an end during the brutal suppression of Persia at the hands of the Janissary troops infesting the place after the British Empire had withdrawn. A resistance was attempted, of course, but the barricades in the streets were overwhelmed by tanks, artillery, flamethrowers and Yperite. Among veterans of the Drakian army, Teheran was still sometimes referred to as 'The Hamburger Stand.'
Puran's life had ended there. The janissaries were monstrous in suppressing the Persian people. Only by random chance had Puran escaped--even at the age of seven--being impaled alive as a warning against resistance. Her fate instead was to be gang-raped by a janissary squad and sold into serfdom. She had barely understood what had happened to her, then; it had been torture and pain and horror but the reality of these things had only grown as she understood what had happened fully. Her suitability as an honoured bride was gone and, had she been older, she certainly would have attempted suicide.
She had not been older. Puran had lived and eventually found her way into Elizabeth's hands at the age of thirteen. Beth was already, then, eccentric in the extreme. A military veteran of the Great War, the Central Asian suppressions, the conflict with the Soviet Union and the Third Balkan War, she had entered the military young and fought hard for fourteen continuous years. For the last eight years she had turned to fighting the low-intensity control mission on the tumultuous Arabian border. In 1928 she had volunteered to command one of the special Janissary forces the Security Directorate had established for that conflict, using a mix of Moroccan Rif and then later members of ethnic minorities from the mid-east who had the necessary skills.
Puran, often alone in Elizabeth's manor even before then, during the years of the Third Balkan War, had been given progressively more responsibility and the training to go along with it. And on each rotation home, in the period between each counterraid or tracking expedition, Beth came back and taught her young serf something or another. It had grown strongest when she returned after the conclusion of the Balkan War, and recuperated for some months before accepting the Arabia job and all the danger that came with it. Sometimes, after all, the janissaries made a break for it.
Elizabeth, however, had been to far gone to care about that. Puran had been seventeen when she had first been called into her Mistresses' bedchambers; a distant decade from the horror of her youth, but she could not help the lingering memories. Beth's gentle touch was so different, but the memories in truth were what kept Puran distant from the act, from the affection that so many house slaves showed to their owners even when they were called on for sex. Memories, reinforced by religion, produced guilt and horror.
Still, it had been hard for her not to emote over someone whom she shared everything with; who had given her responsibility and knowledge and ultimately kept her in touch with the culture she had been born in, illicitly and so that it merely, ironically, reinforced her own guilt over their relationship. Harder, still, when she realized how completely Beth had eventually come to depend on her. A loner and someone who hated people in general, it was not surprising that she'd never seriously pursued a relationship with another citizen woman--for what Elizabeth needed was comfort from the harsh nightmares that visited her so often when she rested in a soft bed. To sleep in the desert, she had said, was the only place that she slept in peace.
Puran's mistress--for she still thought of her in those terms even though she had been declared free--had been raised in but the second generation of the modern Domination. Their parents had chaffed at the decision of old men, who still operated ultimately on a philosophy of racial superiourity, to restore the purebred Portuguese from their colonies that had been occupied in 1912. Still, if it hadn't been for that gesture, the last act of chivalry, the implication that we were still part of the European good 'ole boys club, making the gains that we did would have been much harder in the War, Beth's words echoed back from one from of their open conversations that had come of late.
No such mercy had been granted in the Great War, and the revilement of Germany which hid a certain degree of fear still gripped the Domination for the exploits of the infamous Colmar von der Goltz and Paul von Lettow-Vorbeck. Elizabeth's generation had been raised without mercy, compassion, or morality, but they had also been raised to fight backwards, barbaric foes. The shocking ability of the Ottoman Army to hold Drakian forces had put doubt into some--most it simply hardened, some were unaffected, but some remembered the Citizen battalions advancing, triangular bayonets glinting over Ferguson Royal Armoury make SMLEs, into the dust of battle in the Levant--and never coming back.
For generations the Drakian army had been raised on the belief that if they stood together in rank and advanced in unison to the sound of a fife and drum, no enemy could stand against them; and if forced to form square, none could break them. Their new guns--fitted with detachable magazines to improve rate of fire over the British Army version--also had the archaic addition of a ranging sight to allow indirect volley fire against the assumed enemy of a massed tribal hoard. With Mausers, Maxims, and the finest products of Skoda and Krupp, the Turks had quickly dispelled any notion of their being a tribal enemy. But until 1916 there had been no way to deal with them except send massed janissaries into the grinder and overwhelm them by force of arms. Then had come the "storm groups", small numbers of citizens trained to infiltrate the enemy trenches and gain footholds with grenades and bayonets. Elizabeth had volunteered for them, and she had ultimately been forged in that close combat in the trenches.
It was that wreck of a half-mad mind that now led Puran to the chimaera of safety and freedom. Other people like her had been found out and sent to insane asylums. They inevitably happened. To the Drakian mindset, shell-shock was a sign of mental weakness and so many effective casualties had come from dealing with it, which usually meant a firing squad in the field in wartime. To others the changes had been more subtle, and had taken longer to manifest. They would see Elizabeth dead as they had the others, the ones who had spoken up and questioned what they had done with the horrid memories so fresh in their minds: of the roar of artillery and the sight of countless friends, their bodies turned from living, vigorous youth into so much goo. But they would have to catch her first, and Puran found herself with that thought nearly snarling in pleasure at the idea of that gauntlet thrown down to the enslavers of her people.
Beth turned to her, then, with a quizzical look. The darkness and the battered kappe she always wore on the ride obscured her face, but it was clear enough to be taken in and leave Puran glancing back with a slightly guilty expression of her own. "I'm sorry," she stammered, the first word halfway out in English before she corrected to Persian.
"It is quite alright, dear," Beth responded, the look turning into a smile. "As long as you not plotting to kill me in my sleep--unless, of course, you trust the Druze. They think I am supernatural; they have no such illusions about yourself."
"Kill you!?" Her voice squeaked. "I would never imagine.." She caught sight of the smile in the dark and chided herself into silence as Beth laughed softly. The comment, however, cut truer within Puran than she showed. She should, by rights, hate Beth now. She was freedom; duty and guilt did not compel her, did they? But here Beth was, leading her calmly out of the maw of Hell, leaving behind all she owned except for a few trusty horses and camels, a couple sets of desert clothes, and that Emir's sword, leaving behind the nation that for more than two decades she had warred, for her, for Puran, who in her own society would be soiled and unworthy to touch.
With that sacrifice displayed before her proudly, Puran could not hate. Indeed it threw her more into a turmoil over the feelings in her heart for Beth; things that she could not deny existed in some buried form, not anymore, anyway. Now they raged up and threatened to consume her guilt in a simple hero worship at a deed of nobility from one who seemed so black of heart, as if it had soared out of a great Aryan epic like those told by her father when she had been so young. But the uncertainty clung. She knew what her faith and her people would say of this; traditional lingered to leave her heart in turmoil where otherwise she would have flung herself with abandon into the winds of love.
Her musings were, thankfully, cut short by a distant, haunting sound across the desert night. The Druze around them slowed their horses and looked around nervously, wondering if it might be a djinn. Then it sounded again, and Puran recognized it at the same time that Elizabeth did. Beth took her kappe off and waved it in a single to stop that the whole column somehow saw and obeyed. Then she turned to the non-com who rode beside them as well, and smiled with the look of a predator, and spoke in the Arabic that had been universally used since that first night when she informed the Druze of their plan: "Three kilometers from the Hejaz railway."
The man barked out the announcement in repeat to the others of the group, who reined in--first those ahead, who were leading the camels, and then those to the rear who were leading the horses. The camels, unencumbered at the moment, could make the same speed as the weighed-down horses. In turn the horses in the rear guaranteed that the tracks would be churned in their passing, and if any were recognizeable, they would be those of horses only. That would lead any pursuers to assume that they were trying to make it straight for Kuwait, for in the Rub' one had to travel with camels only. Of course the deception might not work--the acquisition of the camels might be detected--but it was worth trying. More importantly, it brought up their speed. The problem was that they would have to cut south in a rocky area to prevent the trail from giving away their direction. For the likes of Beth, however, the chance of that being a real problem was slim.
"Wait five minutes, then advance," Elizabeth ordered next, as she estimated the distance the train had travelled and the speed, distance balanced against the liklihood of another train coming before they were well in the clear on the desert to the other side. Fortunately it was not a double-tracked line, having been only recently expanded to the Drakian standard gauge from the old metric gauge Ottoman line, and that in turn only after the repairs from the early days of T.E. Lawrence's incessant raiding had been made. The order was giving and the column gradually settled out to wait.
Beth turned to Puran then and smiled once more, moving to replace her kappe, the hand then reaching for her old-style watch. "My dear, another six kilometers of danger, and then we shall be free of it for eleven hundred. Are you ready for the deep desert?"
Puran felt her body tense as those words left shivers in her, of anticipation and fear. The desire to be free and the trust that the act had given her in Beth, were enough to overcome the later. Her hands tensed again and those dark eyes gazed out until they saw where the canopy of the heavens met the desert below, the promise of the great sand seas that were to be navigated to safety. They would be out there for months, and they would have to survive off a land as harsh as any imaginable, and further scoured by the Drakian efforts to wipe out the food sources of the bedouin.
It did not matter. For out there beyond that desert was something that seemed more precious than the Gardens of Paradise. Freedom, the word dusted her lips in silent expression from her native Farsi, and in the dim night's starlight she thought she saw Beth repeat it as she looked towards her. It was what she had promised them, that first night in the Negev, the word that had made the Druze draw their swords, without prodding, and swear undying fealty to their Lady. And it was the word that left Puran wondering if she might not drown in love for Elizabeth, after all.
"I am ready, Beth." She finally mustered her answer, so softly; but it was heard, and at the free use of the endearing shortform, Elizabeth's smile grew wider. She turned out to the desert and gazed towards the line. It would be their last obstacle until they were just a few hundred klicks east of Riyadh, and that would be passed when they came to it, not before.
"Then let us have our grand adventure," Beth replied softly. She glanced down to her watch, and grinned as she snapped it closed and replaced it. The free hand the grasped and drew her sword, that fine damascene blade, and she held it high where it caught the soft light of the stars and glinted in the obvious sign of polished medal. The Druze saw the gesture, and understood it. With the only sound the fall of the feet of horses and camels, the faint creak of the leather under strain as they began to move, the small band went forward, into the freedom of the horizon and the dune sea.
Part One: Where love yet prevails
Sleeping during the night was odd. It was something nobody did. Or, at least, nobody in the desert. The night was when you moved, when the air was cool and the stars overhead allowed you to navigate. The bed was uncomfortable. It was to soft; the body got used to sleeping with only a blanket between yourself and the sand, perhaps a grand rug at the best. Indeed, there was no sand. It was stuffy; the desert was brutally hot, but it was open. Here there was only the slow stirring of the air from a punkah, the bands that controlled it pushed back and forth endlessly by a slave.
Elizabeth, her floppy mess of hair unkempt in sullen contrast to Drakian style, rose as the afternoon began to cool, slowly in that murky air. There would be a long list of things to do, that had accumulated during the day when everybody else worked. Things for her to do, and things for Puran to do. "Bidâr," awake, she said softly into the other woman's ear. And again. "Bidâr." Puran did not easily awake; no doubt her dreams were better than her reality. But the familiar word in Farsi was enough to stir her, and groaning softly, she rolled over onto her side, away from Elizabeth, speaking not, though Beth knew that her eyes were open.
It was a thing that pained her heart. She rolled on her side as well, if for no other reason than the deny the temptation of rest the silken sheets induced. Beth in truth hated them, but Puran insured that the best was provided for her mistress, and since she was usually not even in the manor, she never had bothered to tell her Majorodomo to stop buying them--what would be the point? All the wealth in the world was no comfort to the soul, nor would it ever be. The gaudy ostentation of her society hide its inherent hollowness.
"Ché khabar ast ?" Beth ignored the prohibitions regarding the native language of serfs as much as she had over time become willing to break most of the other prohibitions of her society; she was at any rate in the Security Directorate herself and they needed her. Nobody cared about one eccentric who had at most fifty serfs and stayed in the deep desert most of the year.
"Qalb-e-man zarar rasândan," Puran replied after a long silence in which she'd weighed the response with the heavy heart of a serf to the dangers of the language and of the question. It was a confession that some others would not have stood.
"I do not like causing you pain," Beth answered with a dreadful, towering feeling in the heart. She was tired, a sort of tiredness that a long sleep could not divest her of. Classic Farsi, spoken between them, sounded cleaner and lighter off the tongue than the Drakian dialect of English that she had grown up speaking. It was a language of poets and philosophers, of things unsuited for composition in the harsh, chopped English of her nation with its awkward loan words.
"I believe you, sometimes," Puran answered after another long silence. "And.." Her voice faded to a whisper. "I have even learned to like our nights together. But..."
"I know it brings you guilt," Beth sighed and rolled over, her body pressing up to her slave's, breasts touching lightly to her back, a hand lightly wrapping around her. Puran moved not in response, but rather breathed in slowly the muggy salt-borne air of the levantine coast as it was lightly stirred by the constantly moving punkah.
"I am your faithful slave," Puran debased herself, the words fluttering out with the eloquence of a most humble form, in a language trained around such distinctions, a language that could express a hundred forms of submission to Man and three hundred to God.
The nuance of the sentence did not recover Elizabeth's heart. She rested in silence against her slave, her mind musing over the response, over trivial things in it to avoid the deeper sentiment: Perhaps part of the reason the Dominate was so violent in its control, was that its awkward language, built up with the vocabulary of equality, could not properly express what must be said in a society built around submission.
None of that particularly mattered at the moment, however. "You know I have stopped sleeping with any others, a long time ago," murmured Elizabeth. "Do not fault me for how I was raised, as I do not fault you for the prejudices of your race."
Long years of power and responsibility, by the standards of a serf, and Elizabeth's casual assent to Puran's independence, brought the outburst that came suddenly, the young woman turning towards her mistress with such abruptness as that Elizabeth found herself looking up at the flashing intensity of Puran's exquisite eyes of gray and green, dark hair silouetting the light dusk skin of that nobly-set face and voluptuous frame that had been given every attention deserved of a prized serf. "No one is fated to conquer. Perhaps our race was inflicted with you for our sins by Allah, but that you were the hand of his wrath was your own choice. Allah does not compel anyone to evil without their own desire to commit it."
A reactive instinct of rage at Puran began to grow, but then faded. She could not find it in her heart even to rebuke the girl, not anymore, for an act of impudence that deserved at least a hundred lashes, or worse. That would just restore the lust and the envy and hollow out the heart once more. Elizabeth felt the deadening futility of it all and smiled up, gently. The sudden anger that seized Puran faded as she looked down at that mellow smile and realized how close she had come.
Slowly Puran's body folded in against Elizabeth's, limp, almost exhausted physically as well as emotionally by the act of free will, contrary to the nature ingrained in her for at least half of her life and the formative years at that. She slumped against Elizabeth, sobbing softly against her with the heavy weight of fears and shame, at once at herself and what had been done to her.
Elizabeth wrapped her arms lightly around the girl, the sheet churned around by their movements and now tossed aside. "I love you, Puran, and lust borne of youth and avarice has been swept out of my heart by time in the sands. What is empty is full and what is full is empty--my people are great in their physical strength, but our race is built on the rejection of all inner power. Believe me when I say I have learned this and reject it; I cannot give you my freedom but I can give you my heart."
Puran rolled off of Elizabeth with a heavy sigh upon her lips. "The heart cannot be stirred to passion without freedom. Mistress, I know my duty to you and will never abandon it... But that is all I feel within my heart for you. It is a strong bond, but not what you seek."
Elizabeth laughed, and it was a bitter thing. "I am punished for my obsessions. All the power in the world does not grant you command of another's heart, as your co-religionists so gladly demonstrate in ever-growing numbers."
The truth did not confirmation from silent Puran, who again averted herself from her mistress and in so doing spoke in a language deeper than even the rich words of her native tongue. Elizabeth watched it, and made to rise, unable to bear Puran's presence so close as to be felt through the air, the need to escape the remind of that faint tingle upon the senses.
Elizabeth walked towards the balcony off the bedroom, grasping for a robe and draping it over her form as she opened up the light french doors and stepped out, looking over the gardens she had created in the classic Islamic style, full of fountains and geometric patterns and vegetation pleasing to the eye. Birds dwelled there, and blue-tiled walkways reminiscent of the mostly destroyed Islamic architecture of the world. Some of it remained, in Europe, in Xinjiang, and of course it flourished in India, where the Caliph led Friday prayers in the Badshahi Mosque with its capacity of fifty thousand worshippers.
Her people were very good at destroying beauty. The sight, today, did not calm her but rather just aroused her anger. The price of their unbroken string of conquests was impossibly great, but what had given them the power of conquest also denied them the ability to realize their crimes. Denied them the ability to feel. The outward gaudiness of her race was a masque to cover what was hollow, nothing more, and she could not even bear the thought of it without contempt any longer.
There was nothing here for her. These people were not her comrades, even though she fought and had risked her life for them for nearly twenty years. Her life had been lived in the service of the State, and in the end that service had destroyed her relationship to the State. Once, her lust for conquest and atrocity had led her, when peace finally reinged, to the desert, to continue the fight. But the desert had swallowed up all the futility of those efforts, swallowed up herself, ultimately, so that she was no longer the same.
A Drakian soul was eternally thirsty, but where there was not water, sand might suffice. The cost was incredibly heavy, though, and it still weighed on the heart. "The purest form of love is unrequited love," she murmured, this in Arabic, as was only suitable. Looking back to Puran she saw her obediently remaining on the bed and smiled softly, and then turned to walk back in. "I am going to bathe, Puran, and clear my mind in the steam. I will send for you soon."
"As you command, Mistress."
The words simply drove home the decision made in the fullness of that hot levantine air, that she had but to reconcile herself to.
Puran made her way through the languid heat of the hammân, relaxed by the steam of it, to at last come to the reclining room where her mistress waited. Her heart was heavy, and she still feared the reaction that might come of her rejection. But Puran could not have lied; she sensed the truth in the words that had been uttered to her and she could not make herself answer prettily and falsely to them, to masque her heart simply to win the favour of her mistress. She was beyond it, herself, and that prideful example from a slave had done more to corrupt the one who owned then she could realize.
"Châi?" Elizabeth asked as she entered, gesturing to the tea with a casual sort of friendliness that seemed beyond even the relaxed nature of their relationship by most standards between the master and serf.
"Moteshakker hastam," Puran replied uncertainly as she moved to sit. Shame might linger in her heart but it was long stripped from her body; and in the bath, at least, nudity at least seemed halfway normal, despite all the memories that might remain. She took up the tea and in doing so saw approval in Elizabeth's eyes, and for a few minutes they sipped their tea in what seemed frightfully like a companionable silence.
It was Elizabeth who spoke, again, and this time in Arabic: "I will not utter a word to you in English again, I swear it upon the salt of my body. Puran, you may not love me, but it does not bend my own heart."
Puran felt a tightening in her chest, of fear and curious anticipation, as she looked with widened eyes to Elizabeth. "Why do you say such a thing, mistress, when you consider my duties? What do you mean that your heart is not bent?" The last question posed in rising nervousness that soon became apparent to the woman across from her.
"Worry not, Puran." A serene expression, that of someone who had made up their mind. A decade in the desert and two of war had been sufficient, and love had provided the crucible. "I am headed into the deep desert."
Shock, at first: "So soon!? Mistress... There is so much that they wish you to do here." But the words covered up the deeper meaning of what had been said and Puran knew it. Realized dawned but slowly; yet the sense of a finality came over the room.
"I have already ordered the Druze to prepare for a sortie. They do not know where yet, but they do not need to. We are going south, through the Negev, and then across to the Nejd. From there we will cut south, over the Riyadh railroad, into the Rub' al-Khali. We are going to Muscat, Puran, where they will not expect us to go, because everyone knows it is impossible to cross the Rub' al-Khali. We are going to Muscat, Puran, and there are two sets of riding clothes waiting for us when we leave the hammân."
Puran could not find words, no matter the tongue, as she stared back at Elizabeth, in utter shock. But she did not need them; there was no question of not going with her mistress. This was to be the last command, and it would be obeyed.
They rode mares through the night, fine Arabians bred for these conditions, bred by nomads for their needs under the desert. Puran still wondered sometimes if she were dreaming. They rode under the stars, there was not a cloud, no haze, nothing, just the endless canopy of the stars that guided them onward. It was a strange feeling; for seventeen years, since she was seven, her life had been, no pun intended, dominated by the Domination. Now there was a feeling of emptiness and terrible fright, but it mingled with other things.
It was more impossible for her to believe that Elizabeth had done what she had, than to think that for all intents and purposes she was free. They all risked death--her's and that of the Druze more hideous than Beth's for 'abberant' behaviour--and it had made them light-hearted, the natural instinct of humans to ease the tension of close danger. The ride through the Negev had been eerily empty, nobody in sight, nobody alive. A few empty roads were crossed and nothing was seen: The Bedouin had either died, or fled east, into the security of the deep desert.
Puran had been amazed how during the day a group of seventy-two travellers with five hundred and seventy-six animals had simply been able to vanish. Dyed tarpulins and skillful concealment that was, as Elizabeth had told her, based on how the bedouin now hid in the deep desert--from aeroplanes. It was obvious from the ground that people were there, but even from an altitude of a few dozen feet the whole camp blended in to the desert without the slightest bit of evidence that it existed, or so she had been assured. As for the ground, well, every single one of them--except for Puran herself--had a good old Turkish Mauser, the preferred gun of Security Directorate operators on the Arabian frontier, because it allowed them to use ammunition taken off the bodies of their enemies and was very reliable in the sand.
It still felt very odd. Fifteen years of life receded before her. She had just begun to write in the Farsi script when the Domination came and were it not for Elizabeth those ties would perhaps have already long since been sundered. Her childhood, poor in comparison with her life with Beth, still seemed as paradise. A paradise that had come to an end during the brutal suppression of Persia at the hands of the Janissary troops infesting the place after the British Empire had withdrawn. A resistance was attempted, of course, but the barricades in the streets were overwhelmed by tanks, artillery, flamethrowers and Yperite. Among veterans of the Drakian army, Teheran was still sometimes referred to as 'The Hamburger Stand.'
Puran's life had ended there. The janissaries were monstrous in suppressing the Persian people. Only by random chance had Puran escaped--even at the age of seven--being impaled alive as a warning against resistance. Her fate instead was to be gang-raped by a janissary squad and sold into serfdom. She had barely understood what had happened to her, then; it had been torture and pain and horror but the reality of these things had only grown as she understood what had happened fully. Her suitability as an honoured bride was gone and, had she been older, she certainly would have attempted suicide.
She had not been older. Puran had lived and eventually found her way into Elizabeth's hands at the age of thirteen. Beth was already, then, eccentric in the extreme. A military veteran of the Great War, the Central Asian suppressions, the conflict with the Soviet Union and the Third Balkan War, she had entered the military young and fought hard for fourteen continuous years. For the last eight years she had turned to fighting the low-intensity control mission on the tumultuous Arabian border. In 1928 she had volunteered to command one of the special Janissary forces the Security Directorate had established for that conflict, using a mix of Moroccan Rif and then later members of ethnic minorities from the mid-east who had the necessary skills.
Puran, often alone in Elizabeth's manor even before then, during the years of the Third Balkan War, had been given progressively more responsibility and the training to go along with it. And on each rotation home, in the period between each counterraid or tracking expedition, Beth came back and taught her young serf something or another. It had grown strongest when she returned after the conclusion of the Balkan War, and recuperated for some months before accepting the Arabia job and all the danger that came with it. Sometimes, after all, the janissaries made a break for it.
Elizabeth, however, had been to far gone to care about that. Puran had been seventeen when she had first been called into her Mistresses' bedchambers; a distant decade from the horror of her youth, but she could not help the lingering memories. Beth's gentle touch was so different, but the memories in truth were what kept Puran distant from the act, from the affection that so many house slaves showed to their owners even when they were called on for sex. Memories, reinforced by religion, produced guilt and horror.
Still, it had been hard for her not to emote over someone whom she shared everything with; who had given her responsibility and knowledge and ultimately kept her in touch with the culture she had been born in, illicitly and so that it merely, ironically, reinforced her own guilt over their relationship. Harder, still, when she realized how completely Beth had eventually come to depend on her. A loner and someone who hated people in general, it was not surprising that she'd never seriously pursued a relationship with another citizen woman--for what Elizabeth needed was comfort from the harsh nightmares that visited her so often when she rested in a soft bed. To sleep in the desert, she had said, was the only place that she slept in peace.
Puran's mistress--for she still thought of her in those terms even though she had been declared free--had been raised in but the second generation of the modern Domination. Their parents had chaffed at the decision of old men, who still operated ultimately on a philosophy of racial superiourity, to restore the purebred Portuguese from their colonies that had been occupied in 1912. Still, if it hadn't been for that gesture, the last act of chivalry, the implication that we were still part of the European good 'ole boys club, making the gains that we did would have been much harder in the War, Beth's words echoed back from one from of their open conversations that had come of late.
No such mercy had been granted in the Great War, and the revilement of Germany which hid a certain degree of fear still gripped the Domination for the exploits of the infamous Colmar von der Goltz and Paul von Lettow-Vorbeck. Elizabeth's generation had been raised without mercy, compassion, or morality, but they had also been raised to fight backwards, barbaric foes. The shocking ability of the Ottoman Army to hold Drakian forces had put doubt into some--most it simply hardened, some were unaffected, but some remembered the Citizen battalions advancing, triangular bayonets glinting over Ferguson Royal Armoury make SMLEs, into the dust of battle in the Levant--and never coming back.
For generations the Drakian army had been raised on the belief that if they stood together in rank and advanced in unison to the sound of a fife and drum, no enemy could stand against them; and if forced to form square, none could break them. Their new guns--fitted with detachable magazines to improve rate of fire over the British Army version--also had the archaic addition of a ranging sight to allow indirect volley fire against the assumed enemy of a massed tribal hoard. With Mausers, Maxims, and the finest products of Skoda and Krupp, the Turks had quickly dispelled any notion of their being a tribal enemy. But until 1916 there had been no way to deal with them except send massed janissaries into the grinder and overwhelm them by force of arms. Then had come the "storm groups", small numbers of citizens trained to infiltrate the enemy trenches and gain footholds with grenades and bayonets. Elizabeth had volunteered for them, and she had ultimately been forged in that close combat in the trenches.
It was that wreck of a half-mad mind that now led Puran to the chimaera of safety and freedom. Other people like her had been found out and sent to insane asylums. They inevitably happened. To the Drakian mindset, shell-shock was a sign of mental weakness and so many effective casualties had come from dealing with it, which usually meant a firing squad in the field in wartime. To others the changes had been more subtle, and had taken longer to manifest. They would see Elizabeth dead as they had the others, the ones who had spoken up and questioned what they had done with the horrid memories so fresh in their minds: of the roar of artillery and the sight of countless friends, their bodies turned from living, vigorous youth into so much goo. But they would have to catch her first, and Puran found herself with that thought nearly snarling in pleasure at the idea of that gauntlet thrown down to the enslavers of her people.
Beth turned to her, then, with a quizzical look. The darkness and the battered kappe she always wore on the ride obscured her face, but it was clear enough to be taken in and leave Puran glancing back with a slightly guilty expression of her own. "I'm sorry," she stammered, the first word halfway out in English before she corrected to Persian.
"It is quite alright, dear," Beth responded, the look turning into a smile. "As long as you not plotting to kill me in my sleep--unless, of course, you trust the Druze. They think I am supernatural; they have no such illusions about yourself."
"Kill you!?" Her voice squeaked. "I would never imagine.." She caught sight of the smile in the dark and chided herself into silence as Beth laughed softly. The comment, however, cut truer within Puran than she showed. She should, by rights, hate Beth now. She was freedom; duty and guilt did not compel her, did they? But here Beth was, leading her calmly out of the maw of Hell, leaving behind all she owned except for a few trusty horses and camels, a couple sets of desert clothes, and that Emir's sword, leaving behind the nation that for more than two decades she had warred, for her, for Puran, who in her own society would be soiled and unworthy to touch.
With that sacrifice displayed before her proudly, Puran could not hate. Indeed it threw her more into a turmoil over the feelings in her heart for Beth; things that she could not deny existed in some buried form, not anymore, anyway. Now they raged up and threatened to consume her guilt in a simple hero worship at a deed of nobility from one who seemed so black of heart, as if it had soared out of a great Aryan epic like those told by her father when she had been so young. But the uncertainty clung. She knew what her faith and her people would say of this; traditional lingered to leave her heart in turmoil where otherwise she would have flung herself with abandon into the winds of love.
Her musings were, thankfully, cut short by a distant, haunting sound across the desert night. The Druze around them slowed their horses and looked around nervously, wondering if it might be a djinn. Then it sounded again, and Puran recognized it at the same time that Elizabeth did. Beth took her kappe off and waved it in a single to stop that the whole column somehow saw and obeyed. Then she turned to the non-com who rode beside them as well, and smiled with the look of a predator, and spoke in the Arabic that had been universally used since that first night when she informed the Druze of their plan: "Three kilometers from the Hejaz railway."
The man barked out the announcement in repeat to the others of the group, who reined in--first those ahead, who were leading the camels, and then those to the rear who were leading the horses. The camels, unencumbered at the moment, could make the same speed as the weighed-down horses. In turn the horses in the rear guaranteed that the tracks would be churned in their passing, and if any were recognizeable, they would be those of horses only. That would lead any pursuers to assume that they were trying to make it straight for Kuwait, for in the Rub' one had to travel with camels only. Of course the deception might not work--the acquisition of the camels might be detected--but it was worth trying. More importantly, it brought up their speed. The problem was that they would have to cut south in a rocky area to prevent the trail from giving away their direction. For the likes of Beth, however, the chance of that being a real problem was slim.
"Wait five minutes, then advance," Elizabeth ordered next, as she estimated the distance the train had travelled and the speed, distance balanced against the liklihood of another train coming before they were well in the clear on the desert to the other side. Fortunately it was not a double-tracked line, having been only recently expanded to the Drakian standard gauge from the old metric gauge Ottoman line, and that in turn only after the repairs from the early days of T.E. Lawrence's incessant raiding had been made. The order was giving and the column gradually settled out to wait.
Beth turned to Puran then and smiled once more, moving to replace her kappe, the hand then reaching for her old-style watch. "My dear, another six kilometers of danger, and then we shall be free of it for eleven hundred. Are you ready for the deep desert?"
Puran felt her body tense as those words left shivers in her, of anticipation and fear. The desire to be free and the trust that the act had given her in Beth, were enough to overcome the later. Her hands tensed again and those dark eyes gazed out until they saw where the canopy of the heavens met the desert below, the promise of the great sand seas that were to be navigated to safety. They would be out there for months, and they would have to survive off a land as harsh as any imaginable, and further scoured by the Drakian efforts to wipe out the food sources of the bedouin.
It did not matter. For out there beyond that desert was something that seemed more precious than the Gardens of Paradise. Freedom, the word dusted her lips in silent expression from her native Farsi, and in the dim night's starlight she thought she saw Beth repeat it as she looked towards her. It was what she had promised them, that first night in the Negev, the word that had made the Druze draw their swords, without prodding, and swear undying fealty to their Lady. And it was the word that left Puran wondering if she might not drown in love for Elizabeth, after all.
"I am ready, Beth." She finally mustered her answer, so softly; but it was heard, and at the free use of the endearing shortform, Elizabeth's smile grew wider. She turned out to the desert and gazed towards the line. It would be their last obstacle until they were just a few hundred klicks east of Riyadh, and that would be passed when they came to it, not before.
"Then let us have our grand adventure," Beth replied softly. She glanced down to her watch, and grinned as she snapped it closed and replaced it. The free hand the grasped and drew her sword, that fine damascene blade, and she held it high where it caught the soft light of the stars and glinted in the obvious sign of polished medal. The Druze saw the gesture, and understood it. With the only sound the fall of the feet of horses and camels, the faint creak of the leather under strain as they began to move, the small band went forward, into the freedom of the horizon and the dune sea.