
Do you know how much easier it would be to REFRAIN from eating then it is to have to stuff yourself continually to put on weight? I used to work out fairly regular, and that put my 5'10 frame at around 155lbs at the most. The last two years I got lazy and didn't go at all and I shrank down to between 140 to 145 lbs.
Doesn't matter that I probably eat almost twice as much as the normal person, I'll still stay at that fucking ridiculously low weight. I hate it!
Granted I've got a naturally small bone structure so it's not as bad as it sounds, but I still don't feel "normal". The last couple of weeks I've bit the bullet and started working out again, and I've been taking Periactin which is an antihistamine that stimulates appetite and I've started to rise up again, but you should see how much I'm eating NOW.
All in all I get so pissed off that most other people have the "problem" of weight gain. I'd give anything to be on the other side of the fence. You know what I hate about being skinny? Unlike being fat, people think it's perfectly ok to comment on it and not think it's rude to be hurtful. On top of that, there is always an unspoken, (and sometimes spoken) assumption that you're sick. As in Cancer or Aids.
That's the other infuriating thing. If I ever get stressed during a period of my life and am not eating as much, a 5 lb loss looks much more obvious on me. It's always temporary, but I still get the "Have you lost weight? You look thinner than normal."
Fucking hate it. I wish there was more info on how to slow your metabolism for those that are cursed with the opposite problem. At 37, shouldn't it have started to by now?
