The Poetry of Stardestroyer.Net

jenat-lai · Post by **jenat-lai** » 2003-01-13 05:31am

Spatial and Colour Concepts

The banging of the drum announced his coming
The comic clumsy Petruska
and his theme echoed through the streets
with laughter and song.
Through dark alleyways where dubious deeds were done
and down parks where lovers wondered hand by hand.
Over docks where laborers worked heartily - Panting,
and into the sky where birds looked down - Chirping.
'Round memorials of stone which blazed gloriously
in solemn sadness, showing names of those fallen.
men long forgotten, decades ago.

Vibrant air glittered with glitter
Flashes of light from lights
flung over curious heads
free and fun,
and frivolous folly of the fair.

Until further and further, fair flew yonder.
Echo's of fun beat the cooling air.
Slow breeze blew bare branches
anonymous sound whispering in air
and ignorantly, a single wonderer wondered back
with sound echoing empty chasm
Grey and dull.
Life stood still. Time moved forward.

And far off blue became further black.
The silvery twinkle of newborn star,
the rustling of leaves in the dark.
The wind picked up - chilled cold.
The depths of space spun slowly onward.
His theme drifted eternally upward.

jenat-lai · Post by **jenat-lai** » 2003-01-13 05:32am

<<Flight from Sydney to Milky Way>>

Softly as the cradle the silky cottonwool of sound
emblanketed the world of sound. Inducing sleep.
The massed waves of land stretched to the huge bowl of pink horizon
and the huger mass of tangible sky beyond the fountain

which spewed forth gushes of stars
that rushed forth and covered the increasing dark.
A void sprinkled with glittering white.
Pulsating, without meaning, on the other side of the glass far away.

And below, the white jewel.
A diamond glitter which was a city.
People no more than a glint
covered by a speck, no larger than a single cell.

Or whole streets that appeared like chains of silver,
an ornament on a young woman
a gift from a lover
a whole city.

But all of that which was real
was suddenly not.
Softened by the lethargic drone of the cabin
and hidden behind a long thin wing
bouncing softly, and flicking
on, off.
Bathing itself momentarily in red rose light,
and then in the darker light.

Slowly my mind was taken much further
than the edge of that wing which stuck out so short into the depths of nothingness
I could see up into the stars, the galaxies, the universe.
The craft stood still in awe of the timelessness which was so real,
yet so far away, yet so close.
The fin sliced it's way through the sticky moist, pressing darkness.
Loosing it's grip on the tangible air which filed away in strips of dripping white,
and spun slowly, twisting and changing away into the void before crashing behind the next black window into the unknown.
Freed from the cottonwool of sound, that all enveloping cloud.

Freed also from the savage white
and blue and maroon velvet,
cream plastic tray
and travel brochures
which seemed to entangle the beast's stomach
and which were distributed so recklessly
by ever appeasing hostesses
in hollow plastic smiles

which might have been part of the craft itself
a machine. Not so much of beauty or splendor
but of necessity.
Designed for function.

And so I escaped once more to the universe
and the diamond jewel around my beauty's neck
and smiled at the trickle of a stellar fountain
and drifted into the embracing warmth.

Softly as the cradle the silky cottonwool of sound
emblanketed the world of sound. Inducing sleep.
The massed waves of land stretched to the huge bowl of void
and the huger mass of tangible sky beyond the fountain
that was everything.

Written by me: 1998

Keevan_Colton · Post by **Keevan_Colton** » 2003-01-22 08:50am

A little poem from the pile of pieces I've written...

A raven in the night
Flying a lonely flight
Watching all that passes
Small and blurred flashes
The world from which it is apart
Ever tearing at its heart
The cold starlight
Illuminating its flight...
Black the colour of the raven
The colour of the craven...
Darkness that surrounds us all
Holding each within thier own hall.
The light is held at bay
It is the price to pay
For living in the shadows
Exsisting in the shade.
Lonliness is a constant friend
With us all right till the end...

Post by **haas mark** » 2003-01-22 09:12am

When I look around I see you.
When I turn to the Net I see you.
When I need some comfort I seek you.

In reference to all my friends on SD and LJ.

Keevan_Colton · Post by **Keevan_Colton** » 2003-01-22 09:40am

I suppose this goes here....most of what I scribble down is more rightly prose than poetry....but here is some more all the same....

A thousand masks, great confident faces to put out to the world. Every one a lie.

A cold and lonley spot inside hidden behind false smiles and bravado.

A terrible cancer consuming inside. Eating away at the lost truth and happiness, leaving only the masks to conceal the broken shell beneath. Always the question. Three small letters, a single word. The question and its only answer.

Why...?

Post by **haas mark** » 2003-01-22 01:36pm

My heart aches when I'm not near you.
My soul cries for you with each passing moment.
I need your voice, your song, to run across my lips.
I need your scent to rise under my nose.
I love you eternally, always and forever.

My eyes seek your face, my skin your touch.
I look for your shape in the foggy distance.
I realize you are therem there for me.
I know you'll be there for me until the end.
I love you eternally, always and forever.

Keevan_Colton · Post by **Keevan_Colton** » 2003-01-22 01:47pm

I sit here now in mealoncholy mood,
Upon the heart I do now brood,
Darkness surrounds me, adrift on the sea
captured in eternity forever without thee
The night engulfs me, my hope is gone
Suddenly the horizon glows; dawn
light washes over all, bright and pure
Despair is banished, I await you...

Keevan_Colton · Post by **Keevan_Colton** » 2003-01-22 02:31pm

The sun drifts low in the sky
The light fades away
I come out from my seclusion
Here I belong
I am a creature of the night
A child of the darkness
Loneliness is my companion
Heartache my friend

Keevan_Colton · Post by **Keevan_Colton** » 2003-01-23 12:40pm

I belong in the nights cold embrace
Endless darkness to conceal my face
To hide from them all this pain of mine
These wounds that leave no scars that heal in time.
Another day passes, another cold lash of indifference
I matter not, I exsist here for them at thier sufferance
Why should I care? Why should I aid?
My attempts only bring me more to bear.
More wounds more pain more hate...should I have stayed
Within the darkness, away from others who never care.
I close my eyes and consign myself again to the night
Darkness is my friend...not the light...

Post by **Edi** » 2003-01-24 06:13am

Gaaahhh! Too many poems, damn, it'll take forever to read them all. Well, I'll do that next week and comment on them then, right now no time. Here's one more of mine:

Jewels of the Night Sky

Silent and majestic, stately in their dance,
Glimmers of red, yellow, blue and even white,
For mortals they barely spare a glance;
Shining, whirling, they dot the sky at night.

Under their eyes we make our bed,
From them seek guidance, a sign;
They see us, the children of their dead,
Smile, and bathe us in light benign.

Forever mystical, they twinkle and shine,
Inspiration of the poet, lovers' friends;
Eternal their beauty, trapping heart mine,
Perfect jewels that endure past our end.

Edi

Biddybot · Post by **Biddybot** » 2003-01-26 08:31am

I have written a single piece of fanfic poetry. It was after Vedek Bareil died on DS9. I was quasi-upset (emphasis on the 'quasi'). Here it is:

MY ODE TO BAREIL

Here I sit, broken-hearted
Bareil from TV has departed
For plot convenience he was martyred
Affair with Kira barely started

I'll miss his smile and nature sweet
Bajoran Lassie on two hind feet
Wrapped in clerical robes so neat
(Unravelling them would have been a treat!)

By radiation lame undone
One single brain cell left, just one
Your DS9 stint gone and done
So long, Bareil Whatever-Your-Other-Name-Was
It's been fun...

Shinova · Post by **Shinova** » 2003-01-28 01:21am

Divination

Death is a walkway
From which I can see the panorama of our lives.
I call to the empty blackness of our days,
Hoping.

Long have the memories passed;
Like distant echoes sounding down the mountain valley,
Nevermore to return

Hope is what wakes us to the past
A past of regret, of emptiness;

Of a glass half empty,
Of a life all empty.

This be my divination,
Foretelling all the world who will join me.
In this empty blackness of our lives...
Everlasting.

Shinova · Post by **Shinova** » 2003-01-28 01:27am

The Stench of Everything

Today reeked.

I don't know what it was,
Or where it came from,
But it reeked.

It reeked of a mother and father,
Who were all so caring, tending to my needs and my wants,
Always so caring
So caring to the point of...a point I dare not conceive.

Of friends whom I thought to call friends.
Did I really know then, the futility of connection,
Of the destroyer of the soul it was?

Today reeked of all things,
Everywhere, everything
Nothing was fresh and so clean,
Everything was so false as to be disgusting,
Nothing was clean,
Nothing was true,
Even my love reeked.

It reeked.
Totally.
And now the only place I can run to
Is the safe heaven of my head.

But once I get there, I realize that my head itself
Is also a product of the stench.

Where could I go?

Keevan_Colton · Post by **Keevan_Colton** » 2003-01-28 01:28am

I liked both those Shinova.

Shinova · Post by **Shinova** » 2003-01-28 01:34am

Please Give Me Love

The tall mountain of my life I climbed,
<A senate I climbed through>
A peak of grandeur so grand it outshone God.
<A seat in an oval office>
I strove for this peak with my life's length,
<An election to sacrifice fidelity for>
And I have finally reached it.

But now I see otherwise,
A world of mirrors, of smokescreens.
At a mountaintop with no one beside you,
A mountaintop of loneliness so depraving,
It sucked life and soul out of you and left a shell behind.

Please...

Please give me love over this....

Darth Fanboy · Post by **Darth Fanboy** » 2003-02-03 04:52am

Darth Fanboy wrote:Frozen

Its been awhile since ive been able to smile
and I dont think its gonna happen anytime soon
so many times I picture you nd whenever I do
I can't see me I just dont belong at your side

Its ok I guess I knew it would be like this
All I can do is dream of your kiss
Wrap myself in sleeps sweet embrace
just to see a smile on your face

too many false hopes and crazy dreams
thinking i was going somewhere and taking you with me
but why would you hold back and give yourself
to someone destined to fail like me

And I guess I new it would go this way
and im out of things for me to say
I'll just leave you alone and maybe then
I'll be able to rest alone again

and now my heart grows cold again
frozen by a lack of feeling
the numbness frees me once again
from painful emotions and my own heart.

don't know if this means much but I put this on poetry.com and now its being published or something. Does anyone know if that is BS or not?

Keevan_Colton · Post by **Keevan_Colton** » 2003-02-05 07:52pm

Not strictly poetry...more prose....but....

Darkness

He stood there in the darkness, hair hanging down across his face...a sword in his right hand hanging wearily at his side...his features had defeat written upon them.
The blade in his hand gleamed slightly as he felt them closing in around him...moving ever nearer in the darkness...hungering for his destruction....

"You want me...then come and take me!" He cried, defiance rising in him once more...hideous shapes moved in the shadows closng in upon him, the darkness growing stronger around him...raising his blade high he let out and almighty cry. The runes etched upon its length erupted into blue flame driving back the darkness of the shadows as it scythed through them...one more battle....once more facing the darkness....once more battling his very own demons...

Shinova · Post by **Shinova** » 2003-02-06 03:09am

Slipping Away

I can feel it slipping away
And leaving a mind-numbing void
in its wake.
When did I lose it?
How unfathomable my newly-received
emptiness is.

It numbs my mind, leaves a void in the heart
Slipping away, slipped, has slipped.
Trying to get a hold of it and pull it back
And find something to fill that emptiness inside.

Where can I find a light warm enough to banish
the void inside?

Shinova · Post by **Shinova** » 2003-02-06 03:09am

Falling to nothing

I'm falling down an endless pit
No dimension, no depth, no conclusion
To set things to rest.
Where my feet first lost their ground is long gone now,
Replaced now with an interminable feeling of weightlessness.

Truly, now, I have something left to hold to,
To feel for.

But no---there is nothing,
No barriers, no confines, no distance,
Only that Nothingness that I can see but can't touch.
Out of control, falling to nowhere.

My soul has given way, and the void it left
I now fall down through, endlessly without end.
I can't even grasp air because it isn't.
It's the empty, longing-stricken pit of my soul,
One that has lost grip.

Shinova · Post by **Shinova** » 2003-02-06 03:11am

Darth Fanboy wrote:
Darth Fanboy wrote:Frozen

Its been awhile since ive been able to smile
and I dont think its gonna happen anytime soon
so many times I picture you nd whenever I do
I can't see me I just dont belong at your side

Its ok I guess I knew it would be like this
All I can do is dream of your kiss
Wrap myself in sleeps sweet embrace
just to see a smile on your face

too many false hopes and crazy dreams
thinking i was going somewhere and taking you with me
but why would you hold back and give yourself
to someone destined to fail like me

And I guess I new it would go this way
and im out of things for me to say
I'll just leave you alone and maybe then
I'll be able to rest alone again

and now my heart grows cold again
frozen by a lack of feeling
the numbness frees me once again
from painful emotions and my own heart.

don't know if this means much but I put this on poetry.com and now its being published or something. Does anyone know if that is BS or not?

It's not BS, and I'm sure many people can relate to it. Pretty nice

I need to stop writing and review more

Darth Fanboy · Post by **Darth Fanboy** » 2003-02-07 04:05am

Not the poetry being BS (but thanks for the good review

) I mean the whole poetry.com thing. I got published in this anthology thing and theres something about a possible cash prize, Is that all real?

Darth Fanboy · Post by **Darth Fanboy** » 2003-02-07 04:07am

If I'd only...

If I'd known these were my last steps
i'd have worn more comfortable shoes
If i'd known this was my last game
i'd have tried harder not to lose

I should have known how this would end
Then I would have never called you friend
because rather that destroying you
I could just be avoiding you

If i'd known i'd hear my last song
I'd have savored every minute
if i'd known this was my last life
i'd have cherished everybody in it.

Such is the wisdom in the end
when you've gone and hurt a friend
no time left to do something else
and take all of the pain yourself

Darth Fanboy · Post by **Darth Fanboy** » 2003-02-07 04:11am

Damned but not dying
Cursed for not trying

From all the words I can choose from
nothing I can can say can make you hear
theres nothing I can say to make you think
maybe some day but maybe not I fear

its been to long since ive had a chance
and its been awhile since I felt this way
and maybe its time that I let you know
that i've got something to say

Darth Fanboy · Post by **Darth Fanboy** » 2003-02-07 04:12am

"Ouch" as inspired by Rei Ayanami, the feeling of uncertainty, and a girl...

Fate, do we create it,
or is it predetermined?

It is a comforting thought,
to think we can control our own futures.

But life holds so many inevitabilities,
so many that I think that i'm part of a plan.

And sometimes it hurts so bad,
it seems more like a sick joke than a plan.

But if the future is predetermined,
then why am I so uncertain?

So uncertain is my future,
and even my present.

Will I know more pain?
Will my life hold meaning?

Am I to be yet another cog
in life's perpetually moving machine?

Or am I the punchline of nature's joke?
That took thousands of years of evolution to produce.

Truth, fate, destiny, even love
are all concepts formed in the mind, nothing else.

I am insignifgant, I will be forgotten
my name will fade into the depths of history

My legacy will not survive the passing of time,
memories of me will not be passed on

but as irrelevant as I may be
I think I still have a purpose somewhere

And even though I may not be remembered after death
what I do in life, is still very important.

Forgive me Fate, maybe it is time
that I embrace you once more, without irrational fear

Darth Fanboy · Post by **Darth Fanboy** » 2003-02-07 04:13am

Feeble Attempt at writing

Everything is screwed up
im on the outside looking in
Everything is messed up
from this new prespective

and worst of all
everything wont be ok
But some day I hope you all
find the way to make it better

but even if you do
I still dont want to be a part of it at all
I figured things out for myself, and youd only fuck it up
keep your distance stay away

And worst of all
Maybe things will stay the same
but some day I hope you all
find somewhere to place the blame

Cant you see that i'm busy
oh what the hell
its boring when things get easy
show me what you've got

And worst of all
maybe i'll try again
but some day I hope you all
see it through the end