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Posted without much comment except to blink in confusion.Regarding #Amina, aka Gay Girl In Damascus, here is what I know and don't know. Earlier this week I got a tip from an LGBT Syrian source who didn't believe Amina existed. They had told me they had asked around other members of the LGBT community and they couldn't find anyone who knew her. They also were very concerned that her blog posts were drawing attention to Syria's LGBT community in ways that could be dangerous for them.
Independently of this, two other Syrian sources I knew mentioned similar speculation to me. They didn't say she was fictitious, per se, but they were skeptical of the circumstances described in her My Father The Hero blog post. My first source also expressed similar skepticism. Given their collective experiences with Syrian security services, they simply did not believe it was possible her father could protect her by shaming them into leaving the house. They said the men would have dragged her way no matter what. It didn't pass their personal sniff tests.
I began to ask around on Twitter if anyone had met her in person, and I couldn't find anyone who had. Given that I only started exploring this question this afternoon, there is always the possibility that I simply haven't been talking to the right people yet who can confirm having real-world interactions with her. I then asked if anyone knew of anyone else who had met her in person, and heard from several people who all mentioned the same person: a friend of hers in Canada. I tried contacting her online and didn't hear back for a while. (She has since emailed me back in the last hour but we haven't had a chance to speak yet.) I also reached out to an editor at the Guardian, which ran an interview with her last month. He said he'd put me in touch with the editor who handled the story, so I can find out if the interview was conducted in person. That answer might clear up a lot of this, but I'm still waiting to hear back from him.
Regarding the friend in Canada, a producer at BBC World Have Your Say contacted me publicly over Twitter and said they had interviewed her on air this morning, and he said that she had only been in contact with Amina via Skype. A Canadian journalist who also had interviewed her told me the same thing, adding that video skype isn't available in Syria, so the friend in Canada only knew her via text chat.
While all of this was going on, I contacted another Syrian contact who has connections with two prominent opposition members. He was under the impression that one of these people had indeed met her once, but in an email that this person sent me this evening, he denied this. Supposedly the other opposition activist was aware of her, but I haven't heard from him directly, so I can't speculate either way. Another contact who was friends with Amina on Facebook (but not in person) sent me a collection of some of the photos of Amina from her page. They were all clearly of the same woman whose picture has been circulating as Amina. Many of them are picture of her alone, but some of them appear to be posed with friends or family.
Finally, yet another source told me to take a look at a previous blog she had allegedly written several years ago:
http://bit.ly/j8AWb5
The blog explicitly stated it was her intention to post both real stories and fiction on her blog - and not tell readers which was which. To quote the blog:
This blog is ...
... where I will be posting samples of fiction and literature I am working on.
This blog will contain chapters and drafts.
This blog will have what may sometimes seem likely deeply personal accounts. And sometimes they will be. But there will also be fiction. *And I will not tell you which is which.* (emphasis mine)
This blog will sample what I'm writing.
This blog is not a diary.
This blog is not about politics.
This blog invites your comments.
So where does this leave us? I still have many more questions than answers, but I currently believe Amina is a real person, but one who is much more expressive about herself online than offline. It is possible that Amina Arraf is a pen name, to protect herself in Syria, but so far I can't prove it one way or another. If it is just a pen name, that might explain why the sources I talked to said they'd never met a person by that name. Even so, I wouldn't be surprised if I indeed found people who know her in person. It's just taking longer time than I would have liked. Much of this could be sorted out by contacting her reported American mother, but I hadn't been able to do that yet, which is why I haven't had much to say about the topic for the last few hours. I also felt that I didn't want to send people on a wild goose chase when it's quite possible she is indeed detained under very harsh conditions.
Despite all the questions I have, I am deeply worried that this discussion about her identity could distract people from the possibility that should might be being brutalized in detention, and in dire need of support from friends and strangers alike. Having a pen name and writing occasional fiction on an otherwise real blog, if that is indeed true, is an academic discussion when compared with what she might indeed be going through.
Whoever she is, wherever she is, I hope she is well and with us again online soon. -andy
I'm the one who started the thread. Flames go to me.Duckie wrote:Since it's my fault people on SDN are talking about this, I'll say a bit here. Anyway, the thing about the photos is true. Yet all of this is far more complicated than it looks at first glance, and for people not deeping involved waiting for more info rather than trying to draw conclusions now is probably in order. That's all I have to say on the matter.
Apology to readers
I never expected this level of attention. While the narrative voıce may have been fictional, the facts on thıs blog are true and not mısleading as to the situation on the ground. I do not believe that I have harmed anyone -- I feel that I have created an important voice for issues that I feel strongly about.
I only hope that people pay as much attention to the people of the Middle East and their struggles in thıs year of revolutions. The events there are beıng shaped by the people living them on a daily basis. I have only tried to illuminate them for a western audience.
This experience has sadly only confirmed my feelings regarding the often superficial coverage of the Middle East and the pervasiveness of new forms of liberal Orientalism.
However, I have been deeply touched by the reactions of readers.
Best,
Tom MacMaster,
Istanbul, Turkey
July 12, 2011
The sole author of all posts on this blog
Duckie wrote:And that's a wrap. Seriously, fuck this guy. If I ever meet this guy he'll be getting at least a single punch in the face from me.
A Gay Girl in Damascus
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It was a friendly suggestion aimed and reminding people not to go over board. There are limits to that behavior, though you have yet to cross them.Duckie wrote:Internet tough guy? What do you know about this being internet toughguyism? Do you want me to spell what you should have already read between the lines in this thread, moderator? With all due respect, take it to PMs with me if you want to discuss more.
I'll concede the fist thing regardless, as apparently that's against board policy. But fuck this guy and fuck whatever fucked up sense of morals made him think it was okay to do this, and that he "didn't hurt anyone".
He's a liar and an asshole. What more is there to say but 'fuck him'?
While i do not consider violence to be justified, i share the general sentiment - fuck this asshole.Duckie wrote:And that's a wrap. Seriously, fuck this guy. If I ever meet this guy he'll be getting at least a single punch in the face from me.
But it is important. He is a white straight man hijacking the voices of actual non-white gay women. They actually do exist. They have actual stories. But this man's deceit has made their stories now questionable, and drowned out their voices. I wish I could explain it better than I am right now.Alyeska wrote:He validated peoples prejudice against homosexuals by using deceitful tactics. That it was a heterosexual man is irrelevant because people who dislike gays will remember a lie was told about gays. He might have brought awareness, but when the house of cards came tumbling down the damage was significant.
This is why I do not support the use of a lie towards an important goal that affects the lives of others. If my lie hurts myself, that is my own mistake. If my lie can hurt countless others, it is immoral no matter the good intentions.
What this man did is wrong.
No, you raise a valid point. I hadn't even considered that particular angle. His deceit creates doubt when examining other people in similar situations. And that hurts their voice making it more difficult for them to tell the world of their plight.Duckie wrote:But it is important. He is a white straight man hijacking the voices of actual non-white gay women. They actually do exist. They have actual stories. But this man's deceit has made their stories now questionable, and drowned out their voices. I wish I could explain it better than I am right now.