I am sooooooooooo buzzed...

Post by **haas mark** » 2003-10-15 07:29pm

Hiya all.. I'm kidna drunk right now.. Though you can check the HoS as to why. No reason to ban me or anything for why I'm buzzed.. but I just wanted to let you guys know that today has been one of the shittiest days I've EVER had in a long time. Please.. just hope that things get better for me.

Thanks.

~ver

Admiral Valdemar · Post by **Admiral Valdemar** » 2003-10-15 07:30pm

Drink only makes things worse, but I hope your life takes a turn for the better soon enough.

Post by **haas mark** » 2003-10-15 07:33pm

Admiral Valdemar wrote:Drink only makes things worse, but I hope your life takes a turn for the better soon enough.

Thanks.. I just am sick and tired of moving is all.

I don't even know if I'll have the credit to get an apartment when I get back into Albuquerque.. so I think that I'll just leave things as is, and worry about it then; I'm surte I can find a place to dtay until I can find an apartment of mu own.

~ver

Mark S · Post by **Mark S** » 2003-10-15 07:33pm

If it's only for a couple months, what's the big deal?

Admiral Valdemar · Post by **Admiral Valdemar** » 2003-10-15 07:36pm

verilon wrote:
Admiral Valdemar wrote:Drink only makes things worse, but I hope your life takes a turn for the better soon enough.
Thanks.. I just am sick and tired of moving is all.

I don't even know if I'll have the credit to get an apartment when I get back into Albuquerque.. so I think that I'll just leave things as is, and worry about it then; I'm surte I can find a place to dtay until I can find an apartment of mu own.

~ver

Listen, put the drink away, find somewhere decent to stay the night if you haven't already and have a good long sleep. Thinking about such problems in this state will only confuse you and lead to irrational behaviour, I've seen it happen.

Then, when you wake up, attack the problem with a clean mind. At least then you'll not make any mistakes. Sorry I can't be of more help, I'm knackered as it is.

Take care.

Post by **haas mark** » 2003-10-15 07:39pm

Mark S wrote:If it's only for a couple months, what's the big deal?

I finally got myself settled so that I can have myself taken care of, for once?

Look.. I don't know how many of you know, but I grew up in ana bausive navy family.. whicg meant that not only fdid I have to deal with my parents' emotional and physicla abuse, but I also had to move evey three and a half years or less. WHich meant thast I had to lose friends.

This time I've got doctors that can take care of what I need taken care of. The first toime I've ever been able to have that.

This tiume I've got a guy that's genuinely interested in me. The first time in over a year (about 15 months, to be precise).

This time I've got friends that I know I won't lise. This time I know that I wont' have to deal with moving away permanently for a while,

This time I've got myuself into college, and U can't wait to go back. I have exacrtly two weeks to getr everythign straightened out with them.

My mental health is in extreme disarray, and when I finally have a doctor that I can rely on.. a doctor that seems to actually care about what I'm feeling like.. Ihave her torn away, even if it is for only two months.

There's spo mucgh for me here in Albuquerque.. and I don't knoqw what opportunities I'll have here when I fo get back, even though I will be paid when I do get back.

I am just sick anf tired of it all.. the moving.. the loss. the emotional distress.. I'm tired og it./

~ver

Post by **haas mark** » 2003-10-15 07:41pm

Admiral Valdemar wrote:
verilon wrote:
Admiral Valdemar wrote:Drink only makes things worse, but I hope your life takes a turn for the better soon enough.
Thanks.. I just am sick and tired of moving is all.

I don't even know if I'll have the credit to get an apartment when I get back into Albuquerque.. so I think that I'll just leave things as is, and worry about it then; I'm surte I can find a place to dtay until I can find an apartment of mu own.

~ver
Listen, put the drink away, find somewhere decent to stay the night if you haven't already and have a good long sleep. Thinking about such problems in this state will only confuse you and lead to irrational behaviour, I've seen it happen.

I know, I know.. The tequila is safely at my neoghbor's house.. I am g;ad I got to talk to her. though. A muhc needed brakdown was in order that I had over there.

Then, when you wake up, attack the problem with a clean mind. At least then you'll not make any mistakes. Sorry I can't be of more help, I'm knackered as it is.

Take care.

I am going to have to tink more on this.. but I am still trying to just sort out myself right now.

~ver

Mark S · Post by **Mark S** » 2003-10-15 07:52pm

Look at it this way, you'll be back. Two months is almost like an extended vacation. Everything will be there when you get back. And hopefully this person will have missed you. What are you doing in Reno anyway, if I can ask?

Post by **haas mark** » 2003-10-15 08:34pm

Mark S wrote:Look at it this way, you'll be back. Two months is almost like an extended vacation.

It's two months that I will be working though.

Everything will be there when you get back. And hopefully this person will have missed you. What are you doing in Reno anyway, if I can ask?

What I will be doing is putting up yet another website. And yes, it could quite possibly take two months.

~ver

Post by **haas mark** » 2003-10-15 09:58pm

You know.. sometimes I wish being drunk lasted longer. [sighs] I haven't cried like this in nearly three years.

~ver