Posted: 2006-05-17 05:25pm
Part XLVI
Sebastian saw Janet's expression. "You have something to say?"
Janet just stared at him in shock. Since she'd been brought in as his assistant he'd always had one bad leg, and never showed any sign to want to lose it. She knew exactly what he was planning. "Frankly, you can't be serious."
"I am serious, and don't call me 'frankly.'"
"It is your intention to go to the Vong planet personally?" the Queen asked.
"Yes," Sebastian said. "With my leg replaced with a cybernetic one, I'll be more than ready for any resistance."
"But there's no way off the planet!" Janet protested. "You'll die!"
"But the war will be over," Sebastian said.
"Prefect, we need you," Janet said firmly.
"I agree that the continued existence of the Alliance is uncertain without your presence," the Queen said. "Are you certain you wish to do this?"
"You think I want to do this? You think I want to die?" He looked into Janet's face and must have read her expression. "I don't want to do this, but I have to."
"Anakin-"
"No!" Sebastian said. "I've made my decision." He turned back to the Queen. "You can install the replacement limb you were going to before, yes?"
"We'll have the assimilation chamber prepared, prefect," the Queen said.
"Good, I'll be in my office when you're ready."
Sebastian turned to leave. Janet tried interceding, but he held up a finger and gave her a look, and she relented. He left, and Janet turned to the Queen. "We can't let him do this," she said firmly.
"He's made his decision," the Queen said.
"He's not thinking rationally!"
The Queen stared at her. "Do you think we do not know what this is about? Sebastian's thoughts were part of us for a long while... we know exactly what's going on. But he gave us back existence, he has provided the Borg with so much... we will deny him nothing, even if he desires to terminate his own life."
"I can't accept that," Janet said.
The Queen was silent for a time. "He is so very much his mother's son. There will only ever be Jorielle Sunspring Skywalker... you can never take her place."
"I don't want to!" Janet insisted, but she quickly relented. "I just..."
"You mean well," the Queen said. "But as I said, Sebastian is just like Seven of Nine was; he is incapable of forgetting. All your affections ever do is remind him of her... it is the price that comes with perfect recall, Janet. For Sebastian, it feels no different now than it did the day she died."
"So he'll just kill himself?!"
"You do not understand him," the Queen said. "He is not suicidal, he merely doesn't care any more. If he could escape alive, he would, but since he can't he will allow this to happen without further thought."
Janet shook her head, but it was clear she didn't like hearing this. "So," she said with emotion in her voice, "he'd rather be dead than with me. Rather be dead than let me take away the hurt." She swallowed. "That's a hell of a thing."
"Yes," the Queen said. "We understand exactly." Janet looked over at her. "Exactly."
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Commander Greis walked into the captain's office as Annika worked a datapad. "Ah, commander, I have an unusual bit of work that requires your experienced leadership."
"A moment of your time, captain," he said, ignoring what she'd just said.
Annika set the datapad down. "My door's always open."
"Who the hell are you?"
Annika blinked. "Captain Seven of Nine, obviously. I thought the implants gave me away."
Greis forced an unpleasant smile to his face. "I served as XO under the captain for three years, and during that time I've learned two things. One is that the universe is held together with spit and bailing wire, and the other is that however much smarter she is than I am, I still know how she thinks." He leaned forward onto the desk. "Everything you've done is close, very close, so you obviously know her well too... alternate universe?"
Annika swallowed. She was never much of a poker player, and trying to outmuscle her XO would be dangerous. Her only hope was that he might stay on her side. "Yes," she admitted.
Greis nodded. "Terran resistance, fighting the Cardassian-Klingon Alliance?"
"No, civilian. Prisoner of a Sith, in fact, who destroyed the Empire."
"I hate him already."
"Her, actually." She filled him in on what little she knew. "I hope you understand why I kept you in the dark."
Greis nodded thoughtfully. "That's something the captain would do too." He thought about it. "Is there any way to switch you back?"
"I don't know," Annika said. "That's what this is all about." She held out a datapad and he took it. "I've been reading the reports your captain has written... it's a little humbling to see how much she's done in such a short time. I've barely made a dent, and time is wasting. That anomaly could be salvation, or it could be armageddon, I truly don't know." She seemed leery. "And that's unacceptable. So I've got to learn very, very fast."
Greis looked at the datapad. "Borg technology?"
Annika nodded. "Your team will be building a very special alcove for me, a cortical processing subunit. Fortunately your captain has the ability to form implants as I do, so I'll be adding some memory engrams into my brain. We're going to download everything she ever wrote into my head. Digesting it will take a little time, but within a fraction of the time you'll have as close to an expert as you're going to get."
"But captain," Greis said, "we don't know the first thing about Borg technology."
"Everything you need to build it using Imperial components is in there," Annika said. "Just please, please, be careful. Any mistakes could result in brain damage or death."
Greis took a deep breath. "Technically, I should report you to command and have you relieved," he said. He looked at the datapad. "Were you on the Enterprise?"
"Chief Science Officer," Annika said. "And I have Federation command training and experience. Aside of the Imperial training provided at the Emperor's command I actually have more experience than she had before she took over. In other words, I am reliable... though I admit-"
"You've been relying on me," Greis finished. "I noticed. You're not my Seven, but you're close enough for me to trust you for now, but I warn you," he held up his finger. "First sign that this Borg thing of yours is risking the ship and you're in a cell faster than you can say 'highly-localized disturbance in the space-time continuum.'"
"I can say that pretty fast," Annika said with a grin.
Greis smiled just a little. "Yeah, I've learned that over the years too."
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Sebastian was working at his desk, trying to tidy up a few loose ends, though in truth he was hoping to not think about what was about to happen. For someone who'd had to replace three limbs already, it might have seemed odd that the fourth would be such an obstacle, but it was. It was the last human part... as broken as it was, it was still a piece of him, and he didn't want to lose it. But it would only be for a short while anyway; when the Enterprise was finished he'd be atoms regardless. Whether some were mechanical or not really wasn't going to make a difference, would it?"
Janet came in; he could tell she was uncertain of what she should do, but fortunately she'd been his assistant long enough to know when he needed her to be all business. "Just thought you'd like your updates, prefect," she said as she pulled out her datapad. "The hologram issue has been squared away for the moment; all hostilities will immediately cease."
"Good to hear," Sebastian said, leaning back in his chair.
"Also, the Cardassian’s petition has passed muster; you may sign off on it if you wish."
"Gladly," Sebastian said. "I'd rather have them on my side for a change." He submitted the approval. "What else?"
"A report from Ligalus II," Janet said.
"Oh yes, I'd almost forgotten." Ligalus II was an ideal world for growing Bacta, a commodity that had a great deal of trouble finding its way into this part of the galaxy. Sebastian had sent a delegation to invite them to join the Alliance to see that to fruition. "How's it going?"
Janet cleared her throat. "Not well, prefect." She paused a moment. "The Ligali have kidnapped one of the delegates."
"What?"
"Apparently as a matter of 'personal honor,' prefect."
Sebastian shook his head. "Well yeah, it would be, wouldn't it."
"And according to their sacred laws, the two must battle to the death."
"Oh Christ..." Sebastian pinched the bridge of his nose.
"Any attempts to intervene will be construed as a matter of cultural dishonor and the negotiations will certainly fail."
Sebastian shook his head slowly, his hand never moving. "I hate this kriffing quadrant," he muttered.
"How would you like to proceed, prefect?"
"Have the Enterprise blow up one of their moons, let's see if they change their minds." He caught her look. "I'm kidding... for now. Get me whatever voodoo witch doctor is in charge of these idiots right now; I'll handle this personally."
Janet hesitated. "Respectfully, prefect, perhaps waiting-"
"Now, Janet," Sebastian said sharply. He sat down in his chair; a few minutes later an image of a buff man appeared on the holoprojector. "Greetings. I'm Sebastian Skywalker, Prefect of the Alliance."
"I am Lord High Nishiba, undisputed master of the Ligali and the voice of the Thousand Ancestors."
"I'm very happy for you," Sebastian said. "I assume you know why I contacted you."
"My Third has challenged one of your people in a matter of honor," Nishiba said. "I trust you will respect our ways... I am told that the Alliance has a policy of not interfering."
"My delegate will be returned immediately," Sebastian said flatly. "Failure to comply will be construed as an act of war."
"Then we will have no treaty." Nishiba had a smug grin. "It would be a shame if that were to happen."
Sebastian put an unpleasant smile on his face. "It would... considering that you are surrounded by us on all sides."
"Is that a threat, prefect?"
"Merely an observation," Sebastian said. "After what has happened to my delegate, it is obvious to me that the Ligali are a threat to my people, thus you will be prohibited from entering Alliance space. What's more, given the outrageous treatment of our dignitaries-"
"The treatment is in full keeping with our laws and the ways of our ancestors!"
"But not ours," Sebastian said. "We'll try to understand you, you try to understand us. You are free to run around and kill each other to your heart's content, but I will not tolerate you endangering my citizenry. Now, as I was saying, given the outrageous treatment of our dignitaries, I will also refuse all ships to enter your space, to ensure no further problems happen."
"But you cannot do that!" Nishiba declared. "We would have no means to trade!"
"Then I guess it's in your best interest to form a treaty with us," Sebastian said.
Nishiba growled at him. "You are not an honorable man."
"Coming from someone who sees diplomats as targets, I'll take that as a compliment. Now this is real simple, Nishiba: you return my delegate, unharmed, immediately. You apologize on behalf of your government, publicly, and state that this was all a matter of cultural confusion. We will graciously accept your apology. After that, all will be forgiven... you can choose not to join the Alliance, and we won't hold it against you." Sebastian leaned forward menacingly. "But if you try to play politics with me, Nishiba, I'll slap you so hard your ancestors will get dizzy."
Nishiba's sneer said everything. "I will take the matter under advisement," he rumbled.
Sebastian smiled like a tiger. "You do that," he said, then cut the transmission. "See?" he said to Janet, "that was controlled. I didn't even call him names."
"You remain an inspiration, prefect," Janet said, and Sebastian laughed. He needed it. "The surgery is scheduled for within the hour. Is there anything you'd like to do to prepare?"
Sebastian looked over at his cane, picked it up, and held it for a while. "My leg hurts," he said eventually. "Every day. Nothing I can't endure, but it always aches." He looked over to Janet. "Yet this never crossed my mind. I- I just want to be human, Janet..." He covered his face with his hand. "I just want to be like everyone else."
Janet came over and took his hand away. "But you're not," she said. "You have a special gift..." She hesitated. "And you are a special man. So kind, so generous, so caring... you are the most human being I've ever met. It has been an honor to be your confidante." She held his hand between her own. "Let me help you feel human one more time."
Sebastian looked into her face. "I don't love you," he said finally.
Janet's eyes flicked away, just for a moment. "I know," she said quietly. "That doesn't mean I can't still help you." He was about to speak, but she put a finger to his lips. "You are the most selfless man I've ever met... you always give to everyone who needs a little piece of you." She seemed almost teary-eyed as she looked into his face. "Why won't you ever accept anything back? Why won't you ever let someone else show you just a little of the compassion you have for all of us?"
Sebastian's breath trembled. "I'm so scared," he said, trying to hold his emotions in.
"Of the surgery?"
He gasped. "Of you."
She looked down, then kissed him gently. "You don't have to love me, Bastian," she said. "Just let me show you how special I think you are, how important," she forced a pained smile to her face, "how absolutely wonderful. No strings, no obligations, no guilt... just a gift from me to you to say thank you for all you've done for us." She looked pleadingly into his eyes. "If you'll give up a leg for me, isn't this the least I could do?"
Sebastian's jaw trembled, then he pushed Janet aside with his cane. She covered her face so he wouldn't see her. He activated the comm. "Yes, Sebastian?" the Queen said.
"The surgery," he said. "Have your drones standing by... I may be delayed." Janet looked up at him.
"How long?"
"I'm not sure," Sebastian said, taking Janet's hand. "I don't want to rush this." He offered her a smile. "Some human things need to take their time."
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Seven looked over the program one last time, then nodded. "It's ready."
Janeway looked over her shoulder at it. "You're sure?" she asked. "We'll only get one chance to catch them off guard, Seven. There can't be any chance of failure."
"Don't worry, Kathryn," Seven said. "I know the Borg almost as well as they know themselves." She transferred the data into one of her memory engrams. "If I can infect the Queen with this, it will be just like the citadel all over again... she's connected on the same level."
Janeway smiled at her, but it didn't seem to have the warmth it used to. Probably the weight of all the dead, Seven thought grimly. Well, hopefully, today they'll finally get a little bit of justice. "Anything I can do to help?" Janeway asked.
"No," Seven said. "This is the part I have to do alone." Then she closed her eyes, activated her implants, and linked up to the Collective consciousness.
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Sebastian limped into the chamber, hand in hand with Janet. She knew how hard this was going to be and had offered to stay with him throughout the procedure, to help give him the strength to see this through. He was grateful. The drones turned to him as he came in; the Queen was also present. "This will be painless," she assured him.
"Thank you," he said. He sat on the uncomfortable table and laid back, a lump in his throat. "When- Whenever you're ready." He squeezed Janet's hand; she squeezed back.
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The familiar sensation of being one with the Borg came over Seven, and just as quickly vanished. She was kneeling on a white plane in nowhere, the Borg Queen standing before her. "Seven," she said as pleasantly as a Borg could. "Have you returned with more information? Or did you wish to enquire on the well-being of your son?"
Seven looked up and glared at her. That face... she hadn't seen that face in years, but it was forever burned into memory from that final moment, when she'd connected to the Collective in the Borg citadel. She'd been full of pain and grief and anger at the time; she'd lost Luke, and it was all because of them! First they took away her humanity, and then they took away her only love. Her life was empty... so empty that she did nothing but fill it with work, so that she didn’t have to think about him... and all the loneliness and heartache was their fault! She snarled and leapt, drew back her fist and plunged it into the Borg Queen's head.
The Queen screamed... and then, so did the Collective.
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Sebastian jumped as the Queen cried out. The drones didn't; instead they began shaking about like they'd suddenly lost all control. "What's happening?" he demanded, but no one answered. On instinct he jerked out of the way as a drone struck the table hard, his surgical limb flailing around.
"Watch out!" Janet warned, and grabbed the limb. Of course he was watching out, he had the Force! But she didn't, nor did she have Borg strength, so all she did was hold on for the ride as it swung around. The limb pulled loose, and the barbed edge drove straight into her neck.
Sebastian screamed in horror and grabbed her before Janet fell. Blood ran down her body as she sputtered and went pale. He put his hand on the wound, but it was too late. She looked up into his face and mouthed two words. Love you. And then she was gone.
Sebastian saw Janet's expression. "You have something to say?"
Janet just stared at him in shock. Since she'd been brought in as his assistant he'd always had one bad leg, and never showed any sign to want to lose it. She knew exactly what he was planning. "Frankly, you can't be serious."
"I am serious, and don't call me 'frankly.'"
"It is your intention to go to the Vong planet personally?" the Queen asked.
"Yes," Sebastian said. "With my leg replaced with a cybernetic one, I'll be more than ready for any resistance."
"But there's no way off the planet!" Janet protested. "You'll die!"
"But the war will be over," Sebastian said.
"Prefect, we need you," Janet said firmly.
"I agree that the continued existence of the Alliance is uncertain without your presence," the Queen said. "Are you certain you wish to do this?"
"You think I want to do this? You think I want to die?" He looked into Janet's face and must have read her expression. "I don't want to do this, but I have to."
"Anakin-"
"No!" Sebastian said. "I've made my decision." He turned back to the Queen. "You can install the replacement limb you were going to before, yes?"
"We'll have the assimilation chamber prepared, prefect," the Queen said.
"Good, I'll be in my office when you're ready."
Sebastian turned to leave. Janet tried interceding, but he held up a finger and gave her a look, and she relented. He left, and Janet turned to the Queen. "We can't let him do this," she said firmly.
"He's made his decision," the Queen said.
"He's not thinking rationally!"
The Queen stared at her. "Do you think we do not know what this is about? Sebastian's thoughts were part of us for a long while... we know exactly what's going on. But he gave us back existence, he has provided the Borg with so much... we will deny him nothing, even if he desires to terminate his own life."
"I can't accept that," Janet said.
The Queen was silent for a time. "He is so very much his mother's son. There will only ever be Jorielle Sunspring Skywalker... you can never take her place."
"I don't want to!" Janet insisted, but she quickly relented. "I just..."
"You mean well," the Queen said. "But as I said, Sebastian is just like Seven of Nine was; he is incapable of forgetting. All your affections ever do is remind him of her... it is the price that comes with perfect recall, Janet. For Sebastian, it feels no different now than it did the day she died."
"So he'll just kill himself?!"
"You do not understand him," the Queen said. "He is not suicidal, he merely doesn't care any more. If he could escape alive, he would, but since he can't he will allow this to happen without further thought."
Janet shook her head, but it was clear she didn't like hearing this. "So," she said with emotion in her voice, "he'd rather be dead than with me. Rather be dead than let me take away the hurt." She swallowed. "That's a hell of a thing."
"Yes," the Queen said. "We understand exactly." Janet looked over at her. "Exactly."
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Commander Greis walked into the captain's office as Annika worked a datapad. "Ah, commander, I have an unusual bit of work that requires your experienced leadership."
"A moment of your time, captain," he said, ignoring what she'd just said.
Annika set the datapad down. "My door's always open."
"Who the hell are you?"
Annika blinked. "Captain Seven of Nine, obviously. I thought the implants gave me away."
Greis forced an unpleasant smile to his face. "I served as XO under the captain for three years, and during that time I've learned two things. One is that the universe is held together with spit and bailing wire, and the other is that however much smarter she is than I am, I still know how she thinks." He leaned forward onto the desk. "Everything you've done is close, very close, so you obviously know her well too... alternate universe?"
Annika swallowed. She was never much of a poker player, and trying to outmuscle her XO would be dangerous. Her only hope was that he might stay on her side. "Yes," she admitted.
Greis nodded. "Terran resistance, fighting the Cardassian-Klingon Alliance?"
"No, civilian. Prisoner of a Sith, in fact, who destroyed the Empire."
"I hate him already."
"Her, actually." She filled him in on what little she knew. "I hope you understand why I kept you in the dark."
Greis nodded thoughtfully. "That's something the captain would do too." He thought about it. "Is there any way to switch you back?"
"I don't know," Annika said. "That's what this is all about." She held out a datapad and he took it. "I've been reading the reports your captain has written... it's a little humbling to see how much she's done in such a short time. I've barely made a dent, and time is wasting. That anomaly could be salvation, or it could be armageddon, I truly don't know." She seemed leery. "And that's unacceptable. So I've got to learn very, very fast."
Greis looked at the datapad. "Borg technology?"
Annika nodded. "Your team will be building a very special alcove for me, a cortical processing subunit. Fortunately your captain has the ability to form implants as I do, so I'll be adding some memory engrams into my brain. We're going to download everything she ever wrote into my head. Digesting it will take a little time, but within a fraction of the time you'll have as close to an expert as you're going to get."
"But captain," Greis said, "we don't know the first thing about Borg technology."
"Everything you need to build it using Imperial components is in there," Annika said. "Just please, please, be careful. Any mistakes could result in brain damage or death."
Greis took a deep breath. "Technically, I should report you to command and have you relieved," he said. He looked at the datapad. "Were you on the Enterprise?"
"Chief Science Officer," Annika said. "And I have Federation command training and experience. Aside of the Imperial training provided at the Emperor's command I actually have more experience than she had before she took over. In other words, I am reliable... though I admit-"
"You've been relying on me," Greis finished. "I noticed. You're not my Seven, but you're close enough for me to trust you for now, but I warn you," he held up his finger. "First sign that this Borg thing of yours is risking the ship and you're in a cell faster than you can say 'highly-localized disturbance in the space-time continuum.'"
"I can say that pretty fast," Annika said with a grin.
Greis smiled just a little. "Yeah, I've learned that over the years too."
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Sebastian was working at his desk, trying to tidy up a few loose ends, though in truth he was hoping to not think about what was about to happen. For someone who'd had to replace three limbs already, it might have seemed odd that the fourth would be such an obstacle, but it was. It was the last human part... as broken as it was, it was still a piece of him, and he didn't want to lose it. But it would only be for a short while anyway; when the Enterprise was finished he'd be atoms regardless. Whether some were mechanical or not really wasn't going to make a difference, would it?"
Janet came in; he could tell she was uncertain of what she should do, but fortunately she'd been his assistant long enough to know when he needed her to be all business. "Just thought you'd like your updates, prefect," she said as she pulled out her datapad. "The hologram issue has been squared away for the moment; all hostilities will immediately cease."
"Good to hear," Sebastian said, leaning back in his chair.
"Also, the Cardassian’s petition has passed muster; you may sign off on it if you wish."
"Gladly," Sebastian said. "I'd rather have them on my side for a change." He submitted the approval. "What else?"
"A report from Ligalus II," Janet said.
"Oh yes, I'd almost forgotten." Ligalus II was an ideal world for growing Bacta, a commodity that had a great deal of trouble finding its way into this part of the galaxy. Sebastian had sent a delegation to invite them to join the Alliance to see that to fruition. "How's it going?"
Janet cleared her throat. "Not well, prefect." She paused a moment. "The Ligali have kidnapped one of the delegates."
"What?"
"Apparently as a matter of 'personal honor,' prefect."
Sebastian shook his head. "Well yeah, it would be, wouldn't it."
"And according to their sacred laws, the two must battle to the death."
"Oh Christ..." Sebastian pinched the bridge of his nose.
"Any attempts to intervene will be construed as a matter of cultural dishonor and the negotiations will certainly fail."
Sebastian shook his head slowly, his hand never moving. "I hate this kriffing quadrant," he muttered.
"How would you like to proceed, prefect?"
"Have the Enterprise blow up one of their moons, let's see if they change their minds." He caught her look. "I'm kidding... for now. Get me whatever voodoo witch doctor is in charge of these idiots right now; I'll handle this personally."
Janet hesitated. "Respectfully, prefect, perhaps waiting-"
"Now, Janet," Sebastian said sharply. He sat down in his chair; a few minutes later an image of a buff man appeared on the holoprojector. "Greetings. I'm Sebastian Skywalker, Prefect of the Alliance."
"I am Lord High Nishiba, undisputed master of the Ligali and the voice of the Thousand Ancestors."
"I'm very happy for you," Sebastian said. "I assume you know why I contacted you."
"My Third has challenged one of your people in a matter of honor," Nishiba said. "I trust you will respect our ways... I am told that the Alliance has a policy of not interfering."
"My delegate will be returned immediately," Sebastian said flatly. "Failure to comply will be construed as an act of war."
"Then we will have no treaty." Nishiba had a smug grin. "It would be a shame if that were to happen."
Sebastian put an unpleasant smile on his face. "It would... considering that you are surrounded by us on all sides."
"Is that a threat, prefect?"
"Merely an observation," Sebastian said. "After what has happened to my delegate, it is obvious to me that the Ligali are a threat to my people, thus you will be prohibited from entering Alliance space. What's more, given the outrageous treatment of our dignitaries-"
"The treatment is in full keeping with our laws and the ways of our ancestors!"
"But not ours," Sebastian said. "We'll try to understand you, you try to understand us. You are free to run around and kill each other to your heart's content, but I will not tolerate you endangering my citizenry. Now, as I was saying, given the outrageous treatment of our dignitaries, I will also refuse all ships to enter your space, to ensure no further problems happen."
"But you cannot do that!" Nishiba declared. "We would have no means to trade!"
"Then I guess it's in your best interest to form a treaty with us," Sebastian said.
Nishiba growled at him. "You are not an honorable man."
"Coming from someone who sees diplomats as targets, I'll take that as a compliment. Now this is real simple, Nishiba: you return my delegate, unharmed, immediately. You apologize on behalf of your government, publicly, and state that this was all a matter of cultural confusion. We will graciously accept your apology. After that, all will be forgiven... you can choose not to join the Alliance, and we won't hold it against you." Sebastian leaned forward menacingly. "But if you try to play politics with me, Nishiba, I'll slap you so hard your ancestors will get dizzy."
Nishiba's sneer said everything. "I will take the matter under advisement," he rumbled.
Sebastian smiled like a tiger. "You do that," he said, then cut the transmission. "See?" he said to Janet, "that was controlled. I didn't even call him names."
"You remain an inspiration, prefect," Janet said, and Sebastian laughed. He needed it. "The surgery is scheduled for within the hour. Is there anything you'd like to do to prepare?"
Sebastian looked over at his cane, picked it up, and held it for a while. "My leg hurts," he said eventually. "Every day. Nothing I can't endure, but it always aches." He looked over to Janet. "Yet this never crossed my mind. I- I just want to be human, Janet..." He covered his face with his hand. "I just want to be like everyone else."
Janet came over and took his hand away. "But you're not," she said. "You have a special gift..." She hesitated. "And you are a special man. So kind, so generous, so caring... you are the most human being I've ever met. It has been an honor to be your confidante." She held his hand between her own. "Let me help you feel human one more time."
Sebastian looked into her face. "I don't love you," he said finally.
Janet's eyes flicked away, just for a moment. "I know," she said quietly. "That doesn't mean I can't still help you." He was about to speak, but she put a finger to his lips. "You are the most selfless man I've ever met... you always give to everyone who needs a little piece of you." She seemed almost teary-eyed as she looked into his face. "Why won't you ever accept anything back? Why won't you ever let someone else show you just a little of the compassion you have for all of us?"
Sebastian's breath trembled. "I'm so scared," he said, trying to hold his emotions in.
"Of the surgery?"
He gasped. "Of you."
She looked down, then kissed him gently. "You don't have to love me, Bastian," she said. "Just let me show you how special I think you are, how important," she forced a pained smile to her face, "how absolutely wonderful. No strings, no obligations, no guilt... just a gift from me to you to say thank you for all you've done for us." She looked pleadingly into his eyes. "If you'll give up a leg for me, isn't this the least I could do?"
Sebastian's jaw trembled, then he pushed Janet aside with his cane. She covered her face so he wouldn't see her. He activated the comm. "Yes, Sebastian?" the Queen said.
"The surgery," he said. "Have your drones standing by... I may be delayed." Janet looked up at him.
"How long?"
"I'm not sure," Sebastian said, taking Janet's hand. "I don't want to rush this." He offered her a smile. "Some human things need to take their time."
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Seven looked over the program one last time, then nodded. "It's ready."
Janeway looked over her shoulder at it. "You're sure?" she asked. "We'll only get one chance to catch them off guard, Seven. There can't be any chance of failure."
"Don't worry, Kathryn," Seven said. "I know the Borg almost as well as they know themselves." She transferred the data into one of her memory engrams. "If I can infect the Queen with this, it will be just like the citadel all over again... she's connected on the same level."
Janeway smiled at her, but it didn't seem to have the warmth it used to. Probably the weight of all the dead, Seven thought grimly. Well, hopefully, today they'll finally get a little bit of justice. "Anything I can do to help?" Janeway asked.
"No," Seven said. "This is the part I have to do alone." Then she closed her eyes, activated her implants, and linked up to the Collective consciousness.
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Sebastian limped into the chamber, hand in hand with Janet. She knew how hard this was going to be and had offered to stay with him throughout the procedure, to help give him the strength to see this through. He was grateful. The drones turned to him as he came in; the Queen was also present. "This will be painless," she assured him.
"Thank you," he said. He sat on the uncomfortable table and laid back, a lump in his throat. "When- Whenever you're ready." He squeezed Janet's hand; she squeezed back.
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The familiar sensation of being one with the Borg came over Seven, and just as quickly vanished. She was kneeling on a white plane in nowhere, the Borg Queen standing before her. "Seven," she said as pleasantly as a Borg could. "Have you returned with more information? Or did you wish to enquire on the well-being of your son?"
Seven looked up and glared at her. That face... she hadn't seen that face in years, but it was forever burned into memory from that final moment, when she'd connected to the Collective in the Borg citadel. She'd been full of pain and grief and anger at the time; she'd lost Luke, and it was all because of them! First they took away her humanity, and then they took away her only love. Her life was empty... so empty that she did nothing but fill it with work, so that she didn’t have to think about him... and all the loneliness and heartache was their fault! She snarled and leapt, drew back her fist and plunged it into the Borg Queen's head.
The Queen screamed... and then, so did the Collective.
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Sebastian jumped as the Queen cried out. The drones didn't; instead they began shaking about like they'd suddenly lost all control. "What's happening?" he demanded, but no one answered. On instinct he jerked out of the way as a drone struck the table hard, his surgical limb flailing around.
"Watch out!" Janet warned, and grabbed the limb. Of course he was watching out, he had the Force! But she didn't, nor did she have Borg strength, so all she did was hold on for the ride as it swung around. The limb pulled loose, and the barbed edge drove straight into her neck.
Sebastian screamed in horror and grabbed her before Janet fell. Blood ran down her body as she sputtered and went pale. He put his hand on the wound, but it was too late. She looked up into his face and mouthed two words. Love you. And then she was gone.