Read that sob fic I posted, that's half of it right there. Although, she's still alive. But anyway, well, it wasn't love at first sight, it just evolved from knowing of her to falling in love with her to a downright creepy 6 year long obsession that's occupied most of my life.
So, there ya go. Oh, and I tend to shy away from things associated with the name Carly. I obsess over her name, too....
There are others like her who I obsess about too. If any of you STGODing ASVS'ers met Lt. Amy Lynnebreck yet, you'd know what I mean